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Colorado Transplant here in Nashville
Member since: 07/30/06
Last active: 03/21/10
Profile updated: 01/24/10
Direct link: http://www.realjock.com/SCOTXY
Age: 37
Location: Nashville, Tennessee, United States
Relationship Status: Single
Looking for: Friends, Dating or Relationship, Training Buddies, Online Chat
MY STATS AND INFO
Build: Overweight
Height: 6' 2''
Weight:
Waist:
Chest:
Arms:
Hair color: Brown
Eye color: Hazel
Ethnicity: White
My gym: Work gym
Weight training: 5 times per week
20 minutes per session
Cardio training: 5 times per week
20 minutes per session
Sports I like: Cycling, Martial arts, Soccer, Swimming, Weight training
Other sports I like: I played softball for a season. I would like to get involved again also i would like to get into martial arts again and when i get thin enough start rock climbing too and some rugby i think that would be fun.
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Would love to go hiking with someone, camping.
Id like to find a gay man who is decent build IE knows what he is doing to work out with and drive each other. I have paid like 3k for trainers and none helped me they all half time never show up.
HIV status: HIV -
Safer sex?: Always
ABOUT ME
I - Sat here this weekend. Reached out and yet still sat here. Others have lives that are filled with their own families and loved ones.
So no surprise me being lack of spontaneity lol is not receptive lol ha-ha.
I sat here thinking about a lot of things. Like I am a guy who wants to be loved romantically.
I want to be accepted by that person as person of interest and cared for and cared about.
A person that is on same goals in life to better each other and going after those things. Someone who accepts me as me.
Hell, I can't even accept my physical presence so how can I expect others...
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I know. I mean I look at it this way.
4 yrs ago I had 130$ to my name I had been sleeping in my 89 Ford Escort and I had left my ex of 4y10m.
4 Days in that car starting Thursday and following Monday Got a Job Tuesday place to live. A lot of other details but.
That year previous I barley made 8k$ Then that year 05 I made 14k$ last year I broke 43K$ and now this year I have met the goal of breaking 50k.
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Next year see what happens.
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I reached out to Joe on here ---I am the first guy.
That situation started on September 11th - he was distraught reaching out to me was alone beat down his sister moved up and let him stay in room in her trailer. He was depressed. I confronted him on phone I was not a very nice person. I told him off for 4y8 months he really hurt me physically and mentally and I could never look at a man right nor in same way ever after him. I really told him a lot of things that beat him down to nothing. This was my ex who did some very bad stuff.
I found out on December 12th while talking to someone who apparently talked to my ex bf. It was nice to see he was talking nice of me and how much he screwed up. They wanted a picture of him.
I went to Google him and found an obituary of my ex. He was found in his room dead on 12/2/09
I talked to his ex wife and kids are fine but really cant understand what happened.
Its better this way. I know I am safe now and cant be not harmed nor can anyone by my ex. He was very sick human. I feel like finally I can shed my shell of protection i.e. (fat) and let people in. Let guys in to know who I am.
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2010 Goals
1 - Complete - MCSDT
2 - Complete - MCTS / MCITP
3 - Complete - N +
4 - Complete - ITIL
5 - Complete - MCSA 70-290 and 70-291
6 - Get Training for CCNA 2 week Classes
7 - Complete - CCENT - ICND1
8 - Complete - CCNA - IND2
9 - Start Working out YMCA
10 - Continue Working out Work Gym
11 - Start Trail Hiking in Local Parks
12 - Get rid of 110 LBS of fat
13 - Look into starting College in fall at MTSU
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Working on helping me secure a reliable future instead of the insecurity I feel.
I am HS drop out.
Then got my GED then my HS Diploma.
History -----
I am only child and lived with my mother till 12 then off to my part time wannabe father. He was alcoholic and well heavy hand. @ 21 I got away from that stupid stuff thanks to David my first BF and Rob. David helped me become a person and human.
Have not seen my family for almost 17 years.
Since then neither of them since then have given a crap to contact me.
So I had invested all of me in my last relationship.
They were my all.
I was very needy to have them in my life and able to over look the bad things because the lack of willing to stay around and loose what I was hopping to keep. Its been a process.
I have been working on rebuilding my life.
I really did not want to take on too much and not get anything accomplished. Which is in my nature to take on a lot.
My life -----
-Financial- I have worked on stabilizing the work. Worked at computer factory for about half year then pharmacy tech then back to computer company as budged employee. 3/06 to present. I have done well constantly upgrading and getting better in pay and skills and experience.
-Residence- Near Starwood in New Apartment / Condo type of place Since July 2009 - Lived same place since 3/06 with a wonder full roommate till 11/08.
-Friends- Gained Matt and Brad - Brad left to Austin TX - so just have Matt around but he has been busy with his bf and new home (wow).
Derrick then and has been my best Friend Has had bf 4 yrs and very busy life so distant.
Kiki there after as I came to Tech. She is now a best Friend now too. Its been a rough ride and they all are busy with their others and I am happy that things are well for them. But also has bf and busy life distant.
Kelly is coming into my life and I seem to be close to her as well but she like all of us has her own things too. I am here and trying not be a friend.
Gretel is out of state but ive had her as close Friend pre-Jesse too lol ha-ha and she is like sister and best friend.
David just came back into my life after 15 years.
He has been with his bf 13 years now and I am so happy for him.
I hope to find someone as special as he has I really wish with my heart that I do. They are all I have.
They are what I call my family.
They are the closest thing I will have for family till the day a man asks for my hand in marriage and I marry into greater family.
These people will still be mine.
-Social- Well I have some internal issues with being out in public.
One is security.
Two is I look.
Three how I preserve people seeing me.
Four is knowing that I would not date someone looking myself and based on physical side.
Because of how much it agitates me. Derrick and KiKi are the socialite . . . lol social butterflies. They have constantly gotten me out and about sometimes. I also used to hang with Derrick and Jerms at with their other friends their home or other places it was fun I miss it.
-Mental- I started talking about my past it's really rough fighting through things. I have been trying to battle some serious things that happened and making changes with how I think and what I think and how it affects me in every day.
-Credit- Been working on challenging stuff and fixing it. It's going to be a challenge to be sure.
-College- Trying to fix that as well. Starting dialogs and getting information. If anyone knows about student loan and credits and all that stuff.. I mean really knows then let me know. I need help with it.
-Job Security- I am wanting to start college in spring pay out of pocket for at lest one class for MTSU. I am also studying for N+ and S+ (Security) after that work on the Microsoft series.
-Physical-
October 2007 I was at my largest. 408 lbs.- I had edema of lower legs below the knee. All my stats were racing bad directions. I had to make change. February I was 378 Lbs. Last time I weight I was about 323 lbs. I have been taking a break to get off Phentermine and now off it. I am starting to work out this next week. This time. I want to do 2 sessions a day. Morning cardio. Afternoon Weight/Cardio Using breaks for longer time down there.
I tried to do the weight loss challenge here.
Nu2U Weight Loss Challenge.
But that fell through.
With the end of history and ex gone finally I am going to do it this year. Time to turn the tide.
I started for last 6 months and worked swing shift and have gained it all back. I am getting back to day shift now. Starting back on the routine getting rid of the weight.
-Relationship-
There is none. He has to meet interact with my friends.
Id likes and is open to it but it will take special guy who is real and down to earth.
He would need to be 27-35 and just have job home vehicle and not be a druggie and nor a bar fly and real, loyal.
I kept on thinking that I had to be something that everyone wants or expects. I thought that I have to be what I want to date.
I am being myself now I am me.
Genuine people in my life and genuine guy for them.
I am loving caring man who will give you shirt of my back.
But I refuse to hurt my stability any more.
I am me take it or leave it.
Funny how after I break up with my ex come down here start to rebuild myself. I finally meet a guy I have been talking to as a friend about all that was going on .. we meet hang out... meet his friends and we were outside. I was sipping soda and he walks back into me and leans against me. My heart was pounding I was looking at everyone in panic. When I realized they did not care at all. He then wrapped my arms around him it was colder and interlaced our hands. I just melted. It was first time I had anyone do this with me. I was 33 years old that was first for that. I sure do pickem lol wow.
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Every single relationship you have is a reflection of how you feel inside about you. You are a magnet attracting to you all things, via the signal you are emitting through your thoughts and feelings. Every relationship you have and every interaction with every person is a reflection of your own thoughts and feelings in that very moment.
Focus on the wonderful things in every person. Look for only those things.
Do not blame or criticize anybody, ever
Set an intention that you are going to see the best in everything and everyone.
Make your happiness the number one thing in your life. Happiness is an inside job.
Get your attention off those things in others that don't make you feel good.
Appreciate and love yourself in every moment you can.
Do not expect others to behave in a way you want, so you will be happy. Release yourself forevermore and know that you alone control your happiness and it is a choice, no matter what anyone else is doing.
Love and respect yourself completely.
Know that you are perfect right now.
So no surprise me being lack of spontaneity lol is not receptive lol ha-ha.
I sat here thinking about a lot of things. Like I am a guy who wants to be loved romantically.
I want to be accepted by that person as person of interest and cared for and cared about.
A person that is on same goals in life to better each other and going after those things. Someone who accepts me as me.
Hell, I can't even accept my physical presence so how can I expect others...
-------
I know. I mean I look at it this way.
4 yrs ago I had 130$ to my name I had been sleeping in my 89 Ford Escort and I had left my ex of 4y10m.
4 Days in that car starting Thursday and following Monday Got a Job Tuesday place to live. A lot of other details but.
That year previous I barley made 8k$ Then that year 05 I made 14k$ last year I broke 43K$ and now this year I have met the goal of breaking 50k.
-------
Next year see what happens.
-------
I reached out to Joe on here ---I am the first guy.
That situation started on September 11th - he was distraught reaching out to me was alone beat down his sister moved up and let him stay in room in her trailer. He was depressed. I confronted him on phone I was not a very nice person. I told him off for 4y8 months he really hurt me physically and mentally and I could never look at a man right nor in same way ever after him. I really told him a lot of things that beat him down to nothing. This was my ex who did some very bad stuff.
I found out on December 12th while talking to someone who apparently talked to my ex bf. It was nice to see he was talking nice of me and how much he screwed up. They wanted a picture of him.
I went to Google him and found an obituary of my ex. He was found in his room dead on 12/2/09
I talked to his ex wife and kids are fine but really cant understand what happened.
Its better this way. I know I am safe now and cant be not harmed nor can anyone by my ex. He was very sick human. I feel like finally I can shed my shell of protection i.e. (fat) and let people in. Let guys in to know who I am.
------
2010 Goals
1 - Complete - MCSDT
2 - Complete - MCTS / MCITP
3 - Complete - N +
4 - Complete - ITIL
5 - Complete - MCSA 70-290 and 70-291
6 - Get Training for CCNA 2 week Classes
7 - Complete - CCENT - ICND1
8 - Complete - CCNA - IND2
9 - Start Working out YMCA
10 - Continue Working out Work Gym
11 - Start Trail Hiking in Local Parks
12 - Get rid of 110 LBS of fat
13 - Look into starting College in fall at MTSU
------
Working on helping me secure a reliable future instead of the insecurity I feel.
I am HS drop out.
Then got my GED then my HS Diploma.
History -----
I am only child and lived with my mother till 12 then off to my part time wannabe father. He was alcoholic and well heavy hand. @ 21 I got away from that stupid stuff thanks to David my first BF and Rob. David helped me become a person and human.
Have not seen my family for almost 17 years.
Since then neither of them since then have given a crap to contact me.
So I had invested all of me in my last relationship.
They were my all.
I was very needy to have them in my life and able to over look the bad things because the lack of willing to stay around and loose what I was hopping to keep. Its been a process.
I have been working on rebuilding my life.
I really did not want to take on too much and not get anything accomplished. Which is in my nature to take on a lot.
My life -----
-Financial- I have worked on stabilizing the work. Worked at computer factory for about half year then pharmacy tech then back to computer company as budged employee. 3/06 to present. I have done well constantly upgrading and getting better in pay and skills and experience.
-Residence- Near Starwood in New Apartment / Condo type of place Since July 2009 - Lived same place since 3/06 with a wonder full roommate till 11/08.
-Friends- Gained Matt and Brad - Brad left to Austin TX - so just have Matt around but he has been busy with his bf and new home (wow).
Derrick then and has been my best Friend Has had bf 4 yrs and very busy life so distant.
Kiki there after as I came to Tech. She is now a best Friend now too. Its been a rough ride and they all are busy with their others and I am happy that things are well for them. But also has bf and busy life distant.
Kelly is coming into my life and I seem to be close to her as well but she like all of us has her own things too. I am here and trying not be a friend.
Gretel is out of state but ive had her as close Friend pre-Jesse too lol ha-ha and she is like sister and best friend.
David just came back into my life after 15 years.
He has been with his bf 13 years now and I am so happy for him.
I hope to find someone as special as he has I really wish with my heart that I do. They are all I have.
They are what I call my family.
They are the closest thing I will have for family till the day a man asks for my hand in marriage and I marry into greater family.
These people will still be mine.
-Social- Well I have some internal issues with being out in public.
One is security.
Two is I look.
Three how I preserve people seeing me.
Four is knowing that I would not date someone looking myself and based on physical side.
Because of how much it agitates me. Derrick and KiKi are the socialite . . . lol social butterflies. They have constantly gotten me out and about sometimes. I also used to hang with Derrick and Jerms at with their other friends their home or other places it was fun I miss it.
-Mental- I started talking about my past it's really rough fighting through things. I have been trying to battle some serious things that happened and making changes with how I think and what I think and how it affects me in every day.
-Credit- Been working on challenging stuff and fixing it. It's going to be a challenge to be sure.
-College- Trying to fix that as well. Starting dialogs and getting information. If anyone knows about student loan and credits and all that stuff.. I mean really knows then let me know. I need help with it.
-Job Security- I am wanting to start college in spring pay out of pocket for at lest one class for MTSU. I am also studying for N+ and S+ (Security) after that work on the Microsoft series.
-Physical-
October 2007 I was at my largest. 408 lbs.- I had edema of lower legs below the knee. All my stats were racing bad directions. I had to make change. February I was 378 Lbs. Last time I weight I was about 323 lbs. I have been taking a break to get off Phentermine and now off it. I am starting to work out this next week. This time. I want to do 2 sessions a day. Morning cardio. Afternoon Weight/Cardio Using breaks for longer time down there.
I tried to do the weight loss challenge here.
Nu2U Weight Loss Challenge.
But that fell through.
With the end of history and ex gone finally I am going to do it this year. Time to turn the tide.
I started for last 6 months and worked swing shift and have gained it all back. I am getting back to day shift now. Starting back on the routine getting rid of the weight.
-Relationship-
There is none. He has to meet interact with my friends.
Id likes and is open to it but it will take special guy who is real and down to earth.
He would need to be 27-35 and just have job home vehicle and not be a druggie and nor a bar fly and real, loyal.
I kept on thinking that I had to be something that everyone wants or expects. I thought that I have to be what I want to date.
I am being myself now I am me.
Genuine people in my life and genuine guy for them.
I am loving caring man who will give you shirt of my back.
But I refuse to hurt my stability any more.
I am me take it or leave it.
Funny how after I break up with my ex come down here start to rebuild myself. I finally meet a guy I have been talking to as a friend about all that was going on .. we meet hang out... meet his friends and we were outside. I was sipping soda and he walks back into me and leans against me. My heart was pounding I was looking at everyone in panic. When I realized they did not care at all. He then wrapped my arms around him it was colder and interlaced our hands. I just melted. It was first time I had anyone do this with me. I was 33 years old that was first for that. I sure do pickem lol wow.
--
Every single relationship you have is a reflection of how you feel inside about you. You are a magnet attracting to you all things, via the signal you are emitting through your thoughts and feelings. Every relationship you have and every interaction with every person is a reflection of your own thoughts and feelings in that very moment.
Focus on the wonderful things in every person. Look for only those things.
Do not blame or criticize anybody, ever
Set an intention that you are going to see the best in everything and everyone.
Make your happiness the number one thing in your life. Happiness is an inside job.
Get your attention off those things in others that don't make you feel good.
Appreciate and love yourself in every moment you can.
Do not expect others to behave in a way you want, so you will be happy. Release yourself forevermore and know that you alone control your happiness and it is a choice, no matter what anyone else is doing.
Love and respect yourself completely.
Know that you are perfect right now.
GUYS I'M LOOKING TO MEET
| Your dating personality profile: Shy - You are often timid around others, though you will open up when the right person comes along. Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate. Romantic - You know exactly how to melt your date's heart. Romance comes naturally to you and is an important component of any relationship you have. | Your date match profile: Romantic - You need someone with a traditional understanding of romance. A true romantic is a must-have in any potential date. Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living. Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things. |
Your Top Ten Traits 1. Shy 2. Liberal 3. Romantic 4. Stylish 5. Big-Hearted 6. Wealthy/Ambitious 7. Sensual 8. Adventurous 9. Funny 10. Athletic | Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Romantic 2. Practical 3. Adventurous 4. Shy 5. Athletic 6. Funny 7. Big-Hearted 8. Sensual 9. Stylish 10. Wealthy/Ambitious |
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Guy 27-36 Build or working out or average who wants to work out. I played softball in spring league would like to in fall.
And Want a guy to work out with and more.
Hiking , Camping
Love Levi lol
Does this video turn anyone else on?! lol
If I had a boyfriend that did this I may just have to marry him. hot.
Scott
And my fav series
BTW ------
I have played Games online too long time of games.
MMORPGS
Played
EverQuest
World of Warcraft
City of Hereos
City of Villains
Age of Conan
Beta'd
Star Wars Galexies
WoW
EverQuest
Matrix
CoH
CoV
I want to get into Photography , Video editing and Macs from now on too .. Working on getting Canon Digital SLR and Zoom lens with it and point and shoot decent one.
Also Getting iMac 24 and Mini Mac for Media Center with duel usb HD Digital recorders and few other things and New MacBook Laptop after Release on October 16th 2008.
I was swayed from PC's by iPhone Generation 1 and now I have Gen 3 love it.
Anyhow.. Nerd as I am.
I also want to start hiking / camping / fishing ( i really dont eat them but give to those whom do).
I also want to Travel see parts of the world, Mountain climbing or at least Rock Climb would be more my style really. Once I get more fit and thinner.
Found this-
Thought it was spot on.
ScotXy is An INFP
The Idealist You are a creative person with a great imagination. You enjoy living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close to you.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.
In love, you tend to have high (and often unrealistic) standards. You are very sensitive. You tend to have intense feelings.
At work, you need to do something that expresses your personal values.
You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.
How you see yourself: Unselfish, empathetic, and spiritual
When other people don't get you, they see you as: Unrealistic, naive, and weak.
Found this on profile liked it.... http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyourpersonalitytypequiz/
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