I'm feeling sooooo

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    Jul 08, 2010 11:27 AM GMT
    I started a new job, it's sales/reception at a gym, so I greet members, answer questions, sell memberships, that sort of thing.. Anyway, it's all really incredible, I'm having to learn a ton of new things, think on my feet like you wouldn't believe and I'm under an immense amount of pressure not from them, but from my self, to pick everything up, remember everything and really get into the swing of things, I'm going alright and im learning really fast, its incredible to be being challenged so hard again, to be pushing my self into something so different and new, it's incredible to be feeling this sense of achievement as I pick up the ropes and really get pushed outta my comfort zone.

    It's also the first step, i start studying very soon for my cert III in fitness which brings about the dream of becoming a personal trainer, its six months of study and another six for my cert 4, so I'm not in the industry i've been aching to get into, which is incredible and very exciting for me.

    Ive met most of the trainers at the gym now, at least the two guys and one of the girls, I get along amazingly well with the girls behind the counter two who also work with me, my boss is just amazing and really understands what's happening, shes also incredibly good at prompting me, as is the other girl who's worked there the longest, tara, amazing women, very straight forward and honest and very encouraging!!!

    To have had so much happen, to collapse of a relationship with a man i held so dearly in my heart, then to move outta my home, the place that i felt was my refuge from the world, then to leave everything behind, everything i thought i wanted and walk away with nothing.

    I felt broken but ready to do it again, it really was a bit of a struggle and I had a few set backs emotionally, but then, to be accepted into the course I was previously rejected from because of my shoulder injury then to land a job in the industry, to be now able to really afford my own place instead of having to scrape together enough to do it, to have enough money in my bank to keep me safe no matter what happens, to be meeting new people..

    For so many years i felt hollow and spent in life I felt I'd accomplished so little even while doing so much i felt like id failed my partner and had lost what was so important to me.

    Today im exhausted I'm ready for sleep but i cant yet ive things I need to do and get finished before Bed, tomorrow vie the day off and have soooo much to do im busy i need a workout I have gained so freaking much back in the last month.

    Today I'm feeling incredible, I'm feeling filled a little more today, im feeling more satisfied.

    My god, the things ive been wanting for the last four years are finally coming to me and at a pace that i can barely keep up and adapt with.

    Today i feel like a man with purpose and that purpose is me, its my dreams and hopes and its my happiness and fulfilment in life.

    I'm so fucking happy I cant hold back tears anymore i just had to share!
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    Jul 08, 2010 11:39 AM GMT
    I need a job. I hate you.
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    Jul 08, 2010 12:19 PM GMT
    Well, congratulations, Liltanker! Wonderful for you.



    Odd that I read this post after posting to your question on the thread "Getting To Know You"
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    Jul 09, 2010 2:03 AM GMT
    Love you to Jake icon_razz.gif

    Thanks guys it's been a while since I've felt so freaking great icon_biggrin.gif
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    Jul 09, 2010 2:10 AM GMT
    Hehehe now is the perfect time J I'm in such a good mood and Randy as he'll icon_razz.gif
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    Jul 09, 2010 2:23 AM GMT
    Is this the real LilTanker??..wow..well il=m happy everything working out...but amazed..where did this personality come from lol.
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    Jul 09, 2010 2:43 AM GMT
    i'm still looking for a job~!!! i hate u~! lilTanker~!! i freaky hate u~!!! icon_biggrin.gif
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    Jul 09, 2010 2:45 AM GMT
    This post makes me smile icon_biggrin.gif

    I love seeing people doing well for themselves. Congrats, and keep it up!
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    Jul 09, 2010 2:59 AM GMT
    Big hugs to you Ben. If this is your dream then embrace it and run with it. I wish you success and happiness and fulfillment. I have been very happy in this same field and always enjoy going to work.
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    Jul 09, 2010 3:20 AM GMT
    I wish you lots of good luck...and money...so can give some to me. icon_biggrin.gif
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    Jul 09, 2010 3:37 AM GMT


    Ben, I'm elated your on top of the wrld! Scream it frm the mountain tops!

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    Jul 09, 2010 3:40 AM GMT
    Congratulation…happy post makes me happy.
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    Jul 09, 2010 6:17 AM GMT
    oh HillyGirl, I am already screaming icon_biggrin.gif I'm like Madonna Madonna Madonna.... But I'm keeping it all inside icon_biggrin.gif
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    Jul 09, 2010 6:27 AM GMT
    COngratulations Ben!!! And though this video is about first time sex, I still think it is appropriate since you are SO EXCITED!!

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    Jul 09, 2010 2:53 PM GMT
    wow Tanker, so happy for you man! Hope everything stays on the up & up for you!
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    Jul 09, 2010 2:59 PM GMT
    Glad to see things are looking up for you.
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    Jul 09, 2010 2:59 PM GMT
    YEAH!!! get it big boy!