Jul 13, 2010 7:14 AM GMT
So I'm back in Germany for the summer visiting my parents my mom knows I'm gay and I am planning on telling me dad now that he is back from Iraq. We (my parents, my sister, and I) were in the car on our way to lunch and I was going to tell my dad in the car as I was driving but we got on another topic so I said I'll do it while we eat. So we order some Doner kabaps and I was about to tell him when he stands up and says "son sit here so you can look at the girls pass by" and I got so pissed b/c I know he knows but he still tries to get me to check out girls. I say "no dad I'm okay I'm eating and I'm not getting up" we finish eating and on the way back my mom get on the topic of some soldiers that got kicked out of the army for raping another soldier and she was talking mad shit about them being gay. my mom knows I'm gay I even tell her about some of my hookups. I felt so hurt that she was using such hateful and derogatory language towards gays and bisexuals. The conversation then moved on to a cousin of my moms that is a hairdresser and he is bi and left a family behind b/c he was gay and wanted to live his life the right way; my dad said "what kind of man would start a family and just abandon them to be gay" and I really almost lost it and I almost said "well dad why the fuck do you think I have never dated a girl" but I decided to bit my tongue. I dropped my parents off at work and I go back downtown Ansbach with sister and I was just thinking of the whole conversation and I was thinking of when I came out to my mom. I guess she wasn't as cool with it as she let off. And as I was thinking of all this I get into a car accident and fuck up my mom's car. please don't reply you don't have to I just wanted to get this off of my chest.