Is my voice going to sound like this forever!!!
Sound like what? Tiny Tim? Or Richard Simmons? What is wrong with your voice?
OK, time for one of my true stories:
In 1962, when I was 13, my parents got a reel-to-reel tape recorder, a German Telefunken brand as I recall. The stated idea was to buy prerecorded tapes, and also to have a "parlor novelty" where we could record and play back our own voices.
And the first time I heard my own voice played back I was devastated. The queerest, most faggy voice you had never heard. I ran out of the room in tears, truly, and locked myself in my room for an entire day. I later learned that was my parents' intention, the real purpose of the tape recorder in the first place. Six months later it disappeared without explanation, I suppose its purpose fulfilled.
But it had the desired effect my parents wanted. I "butched-up" my voice, dropped it an octave, flattened out my range, and lost those gay attributes. And later in college I took a Speech & Phonetics degree, among others, to completely suppress that gay sound.
In later years I've relaxed a little, and allowed some of the old gay accent to return. But guys who have met me in person here can feel free to post their comments about how they think I sound today.
So my point is you can lose it if you want. If it's important enough to you, see a voice coach, or take a degree like I did.
The unexpected thing was that I discovered I have a wonderful voice, and have been a radio DJ and done other voice work. Problem is I just don't need the money, and I've always lacked ambition, hate the competition, so I won't do anything with it.
But everywhere I go, strangers actually come over to me, and say: "Are you on radio? I overheard you and you have the most lovely voice!" I turned a faggy voice into a winner, and I see no reason why you can't do the same thing.