Aug 04, 2010 1:02 AM GMT
So its been a week since me and my kinda on again off again ex had a big blow up and we stopped talking. But now those pangs of regret and guilt are creeping up, specially because it seems like he never skipped a beat. He lied to me about numerous things the past couple months so I know I cannot trust him worth shit, but why does part of me still yearn for him? That yearning makes me sick to my stomach at times, but its still there. How can I get past him and move on? I tried to be his friend after the last time we broke up but it just didnt work out. He was verbally and emotionally abusive to me, a real asshole at times, why can't i get angry enough to just toss all thoughts of him aside and focus on myself? Im inexperienced at dealing with the death of a relationship, b/c i pride myself on keeping my friends, and also because my only other BF died suddenly, so ive never been dumped or trreated like shit like this before. Its just all so painful.