Feb 17, 2008 11:58 PM GMT
I am a nice guy. I am maybe too nice. I don't know how to explain this, but my fellow students (I'd rather not call them friends) only like me when they need me. And realising that, hurts. I am their best friend when it comes to bringing them to the airport, carrying their luggage, picking them up at night when arriving late, correcting their reports, helping them find jobs, paying their food and drinks at school etc. etc. etc. But they never ask me out. They go all together to these nice parties and no one ever asks me to go with them. (Merely an example.)
It's even that bad that one of them once came to borrow sugar for the dinner party she was throwing next door (she's my neighbour). They saw me open the door and asked me how I was, but didn't invite me in. I just don't get it. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy being helpful and I don't demand anything back, but I just feel sad that I don't cross their minds when they are having fun. And of course I know I can force myself upon them like they all do. But that ain't me. Sometimes I just wish I couldn't understand body language.
Sorry for this guys, but I thought that maybe if I posted this where people would read it, I could give my brains some rest. Cause I need to stop thinking about it.
It's even that bad that one of them once came to borrow sugar for the dinner party she was throwing next door (she's my neighbour). They saw me open the door and asked me how I was, but didn't invite me in. I just don't get it. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy being helpful and I don't demand anything back, but I just feel sad that I don't cross their minds when they are having fun. And of course I know I can force myself upon them like they all do. But that ain't me. Sometimes I just wish I couldn't understand body language.
Sorry for this guys, but I thought that maybe if I posted this where people would read it, I could give my brains some rest. Cause I need to stop thinking about it.