Hidden Members, Fake Profiles, and the Closet

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    Aug 09, 2010 12:39 PM GMT
    When Devilish_Intentions disappeared a few days ago, it sent a ripple through RJ.... This song happened to be written the same day

    Its a sad truth is that many people in this world, including Devilish, must still hide behind a fake profile of "straightness" everyday of their lives... causing much pain and sadness, for having to hide who they really are

    In honour of all people who must hide who they are, this song is dedicated to you, to the closet, to gay and forbidden love, to hidden lovers, and to hidden and fake profiles everywhere icon_smile.gif




    LYRICS

    Trickling from my finger tips
    Splishing with a swish
    Sinking in sand
    Water in my hand

    From the leaflets
    Falling droplets
    Running through my hand

    Doo doo etc

    I can take no more of this
    Wishing for your kiss
    Wanting to bask
    That is all I ask

    May I stay here
    Having you near
    Nothing more to ask

    Doo etc

    Bathed in starlight
    All through the night
    Take me as your right

    Trust I never will despise
    Take back any lies
    Make fireflies
    Breathing in deep sighs

    Rainbow colours
    Under covers
    Lying in deep sighs

    Doo etc.


    Meaning of lyrics:

    The first stanza alludes to the impossibility of finding and holding onto love for most gay people.... how being gay forces people to hide themselves, and love and relationships are strained and burdened and difficult to attain, and become an elusive goal.. the imagery is of water being held in the palm, trying to hold onto love, only to have it sink through the fingers into the ground and disappearing... Love becomes a "wish" that is never attained

    Trust and lies refer to partners trusting each other enough to be able to drop the "straight cover" for one another , which we keep up so people do not despise us

    The last stanza carries the double meaning of a night between lovers under bed covers, but can also be read as the indicating the "closet", how the people of rainbow colours must remain "undercover"...

    Symbolism:

    The imagery in the song: the cowboy hat in natural sourroundings alludes to the "naturalness" of gay romantic feelings"... All colours are used to indicate the rainbow... the double objects (balls etc) convey pairs that never meet or touch, like love missed.. the same is conveyed by the two dancers that dance in complimentary direction, but never meet... Finally the "rose" is the heart or love, which is cherished, but this cannot be expressed openly, so we hide ourselves behind the "veil"....
  • HndsmKansan

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    Aug 09, 2010 12:50 PM GMT
    I think a "shockwave" is maybe a little much, but I think his departure was noted.

    I do like the efforts, your talent with your video (very nice) and your lyrics there Amar. Thanks for sharing.

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    Aug 09, 2010 12:58 PM GMT
    Amar, you never cease to amaze me with your talent. <3 icon_biggrin.gif
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    Aug 09, 2010 1:07 PM GMT
    Impressive.

    You are a very talented individual; beautiful both on the inside and out. I hope you post more of your work.
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    Aug 09, 2010 1:10 PM GMT
    Good job!!!~~~ icon_biggrin.gif

    can i have that flower?icon_smile.gif

    why do you use so much indian stuff ?? did you have romantic experience there?? icon_smile.gif
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    Aug 09, 2010 2:24 PM GMT
    MuchMoreThanMuscle saidWell, guess I am not one to share in all of the glowing reviews. It was good that you typed out the lyrics because I could not make out one word throughout the entire song. It seems like you have a reasonably decent voice but it sounded incredibly weak. Put your diaphragm into it.


    Sorry that was the flavour of the song... its supposed to be subtle and unobtrusive, for more powerful stuff you need to watch my other vids icon_smile.gif
  • drypin

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    Aug 09, 2010 2:33 PM GMT
    Thank you Amar. I feel like I've just been given a gift. and I appreciate it.
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    Aug 09, 2010 2:49 PM GMT
    Hey amar, YOUR RIGHT hand...

    You have the M for marriage, the m for money (never quite fabulously wealthy but never without it), you like travel, you're stubborn, but with good reason, you have the cleft below your ring finger which denotes intense creativity (sometimes to the peril of all else, lol), the pads on your fingertips are those of the tactile artist (the vibrations of sound are as important as what the ear hears), you tend to put duty and obligations before Self, and this last...

    ..you used to put your lovers on pedestals for the world to admire but you're shifting to the domestic aspects of Love which entail a man being better in the kitchen and the dance of love rather than be publicly appealing (aka having the guy everyone appears to drool over).

    This is a Very Good Hand!

    xo -Doug
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    Aug 09, 2010 2:52 PM GMT
    Raw, revealing, beautiful and above all - real.
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    Aug 09, 2010 2:54 PM GMT
    Whups! Got carried away. icon_redface.gif

    Great song and performance amar!
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    Aug 09, 2010 6:52 PM GMT
    meninlove said Hey amar, YOUR RIGHT hand...

    You have the M for marriage, the m for money (never quite fabulously wealthy but never without it), you like travel, you're stubborn, but with good reason, you have the cleft below your ring finger which denotes intense creativity (sometimes to the peril of all else, lol), the pads on your fingertips are those of the tactile artist (the vibrations of sound are as important as what the ear hears), you tend to put duty and obligations before Self, and this last...

    ..you used to put your lovers on pedestals for the world to admire but you're shifting to the domestic aspects of Love which entail a man being better in the kitchen and the dance of love rather than be publicly appealing (aka having the guy everyone appears to drool over).

    This is a Very Good Hand!

    xo -Doug


    Thanks, the last guy who did my hand was an Indian, but it was very different than this lol, I suppose there is some truth to it, but yeah, every reading I get is different. thank you that was fun to hear ^_^

    The other guy told me I would be rich.. and right now Im broke, so that would be great LMAO!

    I doubt I put my lovers on pedestals for the world to admire, quite the opposite, Im super low-key when it comes to romance, I dont need anyone to see or know lol

    But that may just be my cultural upbringing, where showign off ones partner is not really considered proper.... I probably put them on a pedestal in a personal sense, as in they become so important to me
    True: my duty comes before myself - creativity is intense indeed, its an obsession I cant control, and it gets sacrificed to my health greatly (skipping sleep, eating etc.)
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    Aug 09, 2010 6:53 PM GMT
    danlees saidGood job!!!~~~ icon_biggrin.gif

    can i have that flower?icon_smile.gif

    why do you use so much indian stuff ?? did you have romantic experience there?? icon_smile.gif


    LOL no not at all, Im part Indian and I study its music and dance, I never had anything remotely romantic with the country, its just a cultural legacy in my music, that and my Irish roots and Afro-Latin culture come forth strongly in my work
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    Aug 09, 2010 6:59 PM GMT
    I enjoyed the song. Was relaxing
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    Aug 09, 2010 7:07 PM GMT
    =)
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    Aug 09, 2010 8:30 PM GMT
    eagermuscle saidRaw, revealing, beautiful and above all - real.

    Wow, thank you man, that is a great compliment!! icon_biggrin.gif
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    Aug 10, 2010 2:43 AM GMT
    YOU totally filmed this all day today didn't you?
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    Aug 10, 2010 2:45 AM GMT
    Space_Cowboy_89 saidYOU totally filmed this all day today didn't you?


    LOL, I did it in a day yeah, but it was yesterday icon_razz.gif I posted it today icon_smile.gif
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    Aug 10, 2010 2:46 AM GMT
    Space_Cowboy_89 saidYOU totally filmed this all day today didn't you?
    Of course he did. That's why it took him all the way 'till 8:39 AM to have it posted. icon_razz.gif
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    Aug 10, 2010 2:57 AM GMT
    Wow! This was really cool! I love when people can share their talent! I really enjoyed it! Thanks!
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    Aug 10, 2010 3:03 AM GMT
    No need thank guys!! just tell your friends icon_smile.gif
  • brycetippe

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    Aug 10, 2010 3:14 AM GMT
    Marry me plz.icon_twisted.gif
  • Thomas757

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    Aug 10, 2010 3:20 AM GMT
    that was sweet. icon_smile.gif
  • AlanGZ

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    Aug 10, 2010 3:35 AM GMT
    brycetippe saidMarry me plz.icon_twisted.gif


    U are toooooo late for that icon_twisted.gif
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    Aug 10, 2010 3:49 AM GMT
    beautiful song bud.....OK!!! what happened with Devish_Intentions???? i was away on vacation and have not been on much lately.....
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    Aug 10, 2010 4:22 AM GMT
    crazycool saidbeautiful song bud.....OK!!! what happened with Devish_Intentions???? i was away on vacation and have not been on much lately.....
    He basically slipped up, admitted he was fake, deleted his profile, created a few others to defend himself with, got busted on those too, fessed up again to all of them, and I guess now he's gone for a while (probably not for good, though).

    This song is my exact thoughts for him. He never was a bad person, just afraid to be who he really is. I hope he can come to terms with himself and escape his oppressive situation.