Aug 15, 2010 2:45 AM GMT
I use to search all the trials being done with regards to this disease and I use to really feel a strong sense of hope. I admit I have this dream sometimes that my very own body will miraculously demonstrate a cure... I dream upon so often that I have been lead to such a religion as Ernest Holmes and Science of Mind. I feel sometimes that the whole reason I have lived through cancer and aids is because I may someday show this quality. I probably would give up my life to stop this epidemic or at least give up my disposition of envy... IF I COULD ONLY BELIEVE. Sometimes believing is not enough because I cannot BELIEVE enough. I NEVER had the chance to be with a woman and though I do not feel I am a good age for having children it still haunts me to this day that I never provided for someone that would someday change my life besides younger brothers that I have picked up along the way. WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN 2012... Should I welcome it or run from it. God is NOT evil I believe but, maybe IT is about to tell us something.