Maybe there still is hope...

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    Aug 15, 2010 2:45 AM GMT
    I use to search all the trials being done with regards to this disease and I use to really feel a strong sense of hope. I admit I have this dream sometimes that my very own body will miraculously demonstrate a cure... I dream upon so often that I have been lead to such a religion as Ernest Holmes and Science of Mind. I feel sometimes that the whole reason I have lived through cancer and aids is because I may someday show this quality. I probably would give up my life to stop this epidemic or at least give up my disposition of envy... IF I COULD ONLY BELIEVE. Sometimes believing is not enough because I cannot BELIEVE enough. I NEVER had the chance to be with a woman and though I do not feel I am a good age for having children it still haunts me to this day that I never provided for someone that would someday change my life besides younger brothers that I have picked up along the way. WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN 2012... Should I welcome it or run from it. God is NOT evil I believe but, maybe IT is about to tell us something.
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    Aug 15, 2010 4:23 AM GMT
    "I NEVER had the chance to be with a woman and though I do not feel I am a good age for having children it still haunts me to this day that I never provided for someone that would someday change my life besides younger brothers that I have picked up along the way."

    Well, remember that sometimes children abandon their parents, and sometimes wives abandon husbands and hurt them rather badly.

    You've provided for younger brothers you've picked up along the way, and that some day may change your life. I see nothing wrong or inferior about that. icon_wink.gif


    -Doug
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    Aug 15, 2010 6:08 PM GMT
    meninlove said "I NEVER had the chance to be with a woman and though I do not feel I am a good age for having children it still haunts me to this day that I never provided for someone that would someday change my life besides younger brothers that I have picked up along the way."

    Well, remember that sometimes children abandon their parents, and sometimes wives abandon husbands and hurt them rather badly.

    You've provided for younger brothers you've picked up along the way, and that some day may change your life. I see nothing wrong or inferior about that. icon_wink.gif


    -Doug


    Yeah, I have been totally hurt by girlfriends when I was real young. Probably had something to do with why I went in the opposite direction. I find myself asking what do I REALLY want in a gay relationship if there were to ever be one and the answer is really quite the opposite of a gay relationship most of the time. I want a guy I can opening admit my attraction to if it comes up but, beyond that I can only fathom being with someone that just wants to have fun and doing creative things together... I guess really no different than a friendship, right?
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    Aug 15, 2010 8:01 PM GMT
    Jerred39 saidI want a guy I can opening admit my attraction to if it comes up but, beyond that I can only fathom being with someone that just wants to have fun and doing creative things together... I guess really no different than a friendship, right?
    That's what I've been saying all along.
    Not everyone is cut out to be in a monogamous live-in relationship, regardless of sexuality.
    For most, friends (with occasional sexual benefits) are the absolute best way to maintain sanity.
    For those who can be in long term monogamous relationship and still be happy, I applaud them. They are the few.