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    Sep 10, 2010 1:31 AM GMT
    I am pretty sure I will kill myself before I'm 22 if things don't change soon.
    Things that need to chagne--

    bulimia as coping mechanism---- has to stop
    weight gain--- has to stop
    need to be able to actually get a degree and a real job
    would be nice to have freinds again, and not keep screwing them all over bc of my self-absorebdness (whether its negative selfaborbedness or not)
    would like to actually date and not f things up ervery time
    need to have hope in a future (with career, significant other, family, friends, health, fun things) that i don't feel like i have now
    feel like i am at home on earth rather than a defect
    find some kind of faith again, in something, at least...
    quit hurting everyone around me bc i am so inner conflicetd and do self-harmful thigns

    is this possible? how the heck did anyone with a healthy lifestyle break the mold and know how to cope with the crap that hpapens to you and feel good about yousrelf while dealing with the f act that you're so different?
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    Sep 10, 2010 1:37 AM GMT
    What you have is clinical depression.
    It's pretty common among the LGBT community.
    I would suggest getting in touch with a psychologist and letting him or her help.
    It really does do a lot of good.
    Best wishes. icon_biggrin.gif
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    Sep 10, 2010 2:41 AM GMT
    i guess good to know its common among the community. although ive done hardcore therpay for 3+ years and am as worse as ever.
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    Sep 10, 2010 2:56 AM GMT
    Are you Stuart Lanning, Jr.?

    You sound fake. Either way, you should find another therapist. Try to have fun. Look for things to have fun. Try to actively change your mood. Don't wait for it to change.
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    Sep 10, 2010 3:46 AM GMT
    commoncoll saidAre you Stuart Lanning, Jr.?

    You sound fake. Either way, you should find another therapist. Try to have fun. Look for things to have fun. Try to actively change your mood. Don't wait for it to change.


    Stuart Lannign JR?

    I sound fake?? Thank you, kind person!! I greatly appreaciate your assessment of myself. You're tooooo kind.
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    Sep 10, 2010 3:56 AM GMT
    fudgepacket07 saidI am pretty sure I will kill myself before I'm 22 if things don't change soon.
    Things that need to chagne--

    bulimia as coping mechanism---- has to stop
    weight gain--- has to stop
    need to be able to actually get a degree and a real job
    would be nice to have freinds again, and not keep screwing them all over bc of my self-absorebdness (whether its negative selfaborbedness or not)
    would like to actually date and not f things up ervery time
    need to have hope in a future (with career, significant other, family, friends, health, fun things) that i don't feel like i have now
    feel like i am at home on earth rather than a defect
    find some kind of faith again, in something, at least...
    quit hurting everyone around me bc i am so inner conflicetd and do self-harmful thigns

    is this possible? how the heck did anyone with a healthy lifestyle break the mold and know how to cope with the crap that hpapens to you and feel good about yousrelf while dealing with the f act that you're so different?

    this is a normal ... Well, you may have a rather ascerbated case of it.... Passage in life. It happens in late 20s. Go read The New Passages.

    Hold it. How your post says 22, but your profile says your 25.