Sep 27, 2010 7:52 AM GMT
Well the past few months I have been thinking about if I should come out or not. Its kinda difficult for me to tell people that im gay since I am in denial with myself. I'm 19 and most of my friends have suspected idea, since most of my friends are straight and are always questioning me about my sexuality. Well Ive come to coming out only with the help of some "dank" stuff and only admited to being bisexual and that really didnt turn out that well to some of my friends. I dont know, my best friend (who is straight) is sensitive to that topic since i guess he doesnt want to be known as the guy with a gay best friend and his girlfriend hates gay people. Also, I can remember past conversations with my mom and dad about gay rights and "what if situations" if i married the same sex and that did not turn out well. I dont know, through some of these situations and many others I find it better i should not come out at all till im like freaking 40 or 30 and live mylife like a straight person I guess. I dont know what to do with my situation since I have alot on the line and I just dont want to lose it all. Though im very happy with mylife they way it is, I find it kinda lonely sometimes since I cant date or do anything with my orientation. It makes it frustrating, but im not depress or anything... but it would be better if i kind enjoy being young and go out with anyone i like and not have to deal with these problems. So should I come out or not?