Hell yes people think I'm straight. I actually went to this LGBT 'gathering' or social meeting or whatever...actually i didn't go inside. I was late, for one thing. The other thing was that this receptionist, this young naive college girl said to me "Oh. wait! don't go in there...they are having an LGBT meeting."
The way she said it pissed me off the the nth degree, because first of all; how can you tell if someone is gay. Second of all, it just really pissed me off. It made me sort of not even want to go in, after that point. I can guarantee you; I would get the same reaction from supposedly "gay" people in the meeting, if I went in. I've been around social events, and if I walked into that room, I can guarantee you I would get more than a few awkward stares from people trying to figure out what exactly I was doing there. Or analyzing me for some sign of "gayness". This happens to me ALL THE TIME when I'm around gay people and they know I'm gay. I can't stand it. Its like they are always watching me; just waiting for me to slip up once and do something 'feminine'. I can't fucking stand it. In a place where I am "supposed" to feel accepted and comfortable, I feel anything BUT.
What defines gayness, anyhow? If you watch tv and listen to the media...or even subscribe to popular mainstream gay culture...they would have you believe that everyone is that one really gay guy on Will and Grace. Do you see gay men on tv who like sports, who didn't grow up playing with barbie dolls or acting girly all the time? No.
Well. In a way we have done it to ourselves. That's one reason I HATE gay culture. And I am not self loathing; so fuck off if you had planned on telling me that I am. Mainstream gays perpetuate stereotypical attitudes and the whole philosophy is that of assimilation; not acceptance. Lady Gaga, tight jeans, a limp wrist, an accesory for a girl, a 'girly man' is my token for being accepted as having same sex attration? Get real. I have never EVER related to any of these things.
I made a post about this earlier, in All things Gay forum. Apparently, no one thinks its an important topic.