I would rather die young which is why I am a reckless fool. I have no fear of death but I am a risk taker in life. No risk, no rewards.
I have broken so many bones and have so many steel reinforced parts, from climbing accidents to surfing accidents, I broke my neck once when I got sucked up into a huge tube and slammed against the reef, almost drowned too many times to count; no I'm not paralyzed, and I broke my back and my pelvis when I fell off a granite faced wall that I was climbing barefoot 100 feet straight up, another time I fell off a suspension bridge when I climbed over it and started making my way across it using my hands to swing from cable to cable, broke my arm and my legs, both compound fractures, too much to list.
I had a friend in san diego who got hit by a bus while standing on a street corner and killed.
Life is full of risks. Take them. Own it. Who the fuck cares. You're going to die anyway, you might as well enjoy the short time you have and make the most of life and make it what you want it to be.
Be fearless and strong and brave. I read about too many men who are afraid of this, or afraid of that, or afraid of the unknown. Got news for you, you start to die the minute you're born. you start to age the moment you are conceived. It is inevitable, like Andy Warhol painted in one of his pictures of a white cross on a black background.
We are mortal. Growing old and dying alone doesn't scare me, but living a life unrealized, does.
I've spent most of my life alone. I value and cherish my kid and that will give me unconditional love and respect for my entire life, that's sufficient. I don't need a partner or a boyfriend to make me feel complete or whole. I just need a tasty wave and a warm sandy beach.