apathetic about life

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    Oct 16, 2010 4:36 PM GMT
    Normally i usually think its stupid when people write these "poor me" topics, but I'm not sure else where to talk about this...

    The thing is, I've come to the conclusion that I'm slowly becoming more and more apathetic about life and i dont know how to describe it better than that.

    I feel like im getting to the point where I'm almost numb to everything around me, and I feel like I'm the only person i know who doesnt have a passion for something...

    I feel like im disillusioned with the world and i can't shake this "what's the point?" feeling...

    I realize this sounds like suicidal talk, and id be lying if i said I've never thought of it... but for whatever reason i don't feel that im capable of ever taking it that far...

    I can't be the only one who's feels/felt this... am I?
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    Oct 16, 2010 4:57 PM GMT
    I know the feeling, it might help for you to just get up and go and do stuff you've never done before. Get some friends get your car and just go for a nice road trip.

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    Oct 16, 2010 5:19 PM GMT
    Hang in there, those feelings ebe and flow.
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    Oct 16, 2010 5:21 PM GMT
    Maybe you're hanging around with the wrong people (for you)?

    For example, if you're closeted and just hanging with a bunch of guys and going through the motions of being like them but you aren't so you don't care?

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    Oct 16, 2010 5:36 PM GMT
    well i do hang out with exclusively straight people. its possible that could be why... but why would that effect how i feel about things that are unrelated? life just seems really boring these days..
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    Oct 16, 2010 5:40 PM GMT
    YoungJock4 saidwell i do hang out with exclusively straight people. its possible that could be why... but why would that effect how i feel about things that are unrelated? life just seems really boring these days..


    Well if you aren't out to them, that's a part of you that you are keeping closed off. It's like you are with them but are never REALLY with them.

    Friends and love is what life is all about, if you can't be totally open about who you are you are it is going to affect you.
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    Oct 16, 2010 5:46 PM GMT
    You are exhibiting the initial stages of depression, which is not uncommon among gay men, and men in general....See your doctor and get a checkup before you do anything else, it could all be physiological......Keithicon_cool.gif
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    Oct 16, 2010 6:05 PM GMT
    YoungJock4 saidwell i do hang out with exclusively straight people. its possible that could be why... but why would that effect how i feel about things that are unrelated? life just seems really boring these days..

    Spices are just a tiny part of your food, yet how good is food without spices?
    It'll sustain you, but it's boring. Right?

    You are lacking the spice of life.
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    Oct 17, 2010 1:10 AM GMT
    vetteset saidYou are exhibiting the initial stages of depression, which is not uncommon among gay men, and men in general....See your doctor and get a checkup before you do anything else, it could all be physiological......Keithicon_cool.gif


    would a doctor do anything other than put me on an anti depressant? im not really a fan of taking pills and neither is my family really... I got really negative responses from them when i tried talking to them because i felt i was ADD (which i know i am) so i cant even imagine the response about depression :/
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    Oct 17, 2010 1:15 AM GMT
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    vetteset saidYou are exhibiting the initial stages of depression, which is not uncommon among gay men, and men in general....See your doctor and get a checkup before you do anything else, it could all be physiological......Keithicon_cool.gif


    would a doctor do anything other than put me on an anti depressant? im not really a fan of taking pills and neither is my family really... I got really negative responses from them when i tried talking to them because i felt i was ADD (which i know i am) so i cant even imagine the response about depression :/

    vetteset is right. You need to explore all possibilities. You're not buying into a treatment, just finding out what the cause might be. Don't let your family hold you back. You need to find out.
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    Oct 17, 2010 1:18 AM GMT
    NAH I don't think you should see a doctor. My advice would be do something out of character!!!!! LIVE LIFE AGAIN

    Maybe you life right now is so monotonous you need to shake it up! I mean I don't really know, but break away from repetition. travel somewhere, camp, rockclimb, learn that thing you've always wanted to try, cook something new for people.....I hope this helps icon_biggrin.gif
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    Oct 17, 2010 4:25 AM GMT
    Congratulations! You're having your first "existential crisis".

    Good news! It will pass. And, if you are astute you will use this opportunity to glean knowledge of yourself. Of who and what you are. Of who and what you are not.

    Here's one of my secrets for getting the most out of every single one of my existential crisis: Utilize a professional counselor.

    Aloha and Be Well!
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    Oct 17, 2010 4:47 AM GMT
    I'd recommend going to see a therapist. I think therapy has a bad stigma in society, but it is REALLY helpful. I think everyone should have to go to therapy every once in a while. I'm sure you think, "yeah what can some perfect stranger do to help me", but you'd be surprised. I mean, you're asking a bunch of strangers on the internet, right?

    Go see someone, even if it's just for like 4-6 sessions. You'll be glad you did.
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    Oct 17, 2010 5:10 AM GMT
    First of all, you are gorgeous. Secondly, I have felt the same thing as you, and just went through it recently. It could be related to some sort of minor depression, which many people go through, or it could just be, as someone else said, an existential crisis or something completely else. Trying something completely new and different could definitely help. I understand you about the wanting to avoid SSRI's, and maybe you should check out herbal supplements. Valerian root or St. John's wort could be effective and is natural, of course talk to your Dr. about this and see.
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    Oct 17, 2010 5:21 AM GMT
    . . . didn't Camus ask us to imagine Sisyphus, against all instinct, as happy? . . . and then there is the Shakespearan "men must endure their going hence . . ."

    the world is not a happy place . . . it's an arena for struggle and learning, regardless of the pablum that is taught and inculcated today by schools, fools, and meninlove . . .

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    Oct 17, 2010 5:29 AM GMT
    noren saidthe world is not a happy place . . . it's an arena for struggle and learning, regardless of the pablum that is taught and inculcated today by schools, fools, and meninlove . . .


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    Oct 17, 2010 6:02 AM GMT
    We've all been or will be distracted by LIFE and it is GRAND by all measures. Your feeling of apathy will last as long as you let. It's hard to make the choice to be happy when all around you seems bleak. Another obstacle and hurdle that will challenge your commitment to self and the happiness you create around you. The bttmline is Choose..... to beicon_biggrin.gif
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    Oct 17, 2010 6:19 AM GMT
    I've been feeling this way lately too. My problem is I have no time to see a counselor with my schedule. Every minute of everyday every weekday when they are open is BOOKED. My grades suck right now, I may not get into the program I thought I needed to be in because of it, and I'm sick of school and don't study. I'm also 2-3 minutes late for EVERYTHING I DO. Class, work, etc.

    I really don't have a support network these days. When I was growing up, I was religious and my mom was too, so I'd talk to her. I am not religious anymore, so talking to her is sort of not the same. I feel trapped and can't pull the plug on school till the end of the semester, at which point I will not need to because we get a full month off which is plenty of time to get back on track.
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    Oct 17, 2010 7:03 AM GMT
    Thank you all for ur opinions and concern. I think i really do need to change something and I'm going to try to take some of the good advice that you guys have given me.

    For everybody else who's told me that they share in the way I feel or similar, please don't take any permanent action to a temporary problem. I'm always up to talk with anybody who needs to, since you've given me your time here its the least I can do.

    Thx again to everyone.
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    Oct 17, 2010 8:23 AM GMT
    I don't think you are the only one. I used to be such a nice guy; I cared and tried to be understanding of people around me, but I am tired and realized I have my own shit to deal with. So, I understand where you are coming from, and I think it is just a phase we all go through. Right now I wake up, do my daily routine, come home, do some more of the usual, and go to bed. Sometimes I lay there thinking of what the hell is life? how are you suppose to find the meaning of it? The answer never comes, and I, suddenly, find myself going through the same shit early in the morning again...Oh well!