Best Post Of The Month

  • metta

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    Dec 06, 2010 11:32 PM GMT
    I Nominate Sk8Tex's post in "PROTECTING LIVES - Let's Talk About AIDS or Talk About NOT Talking About It" thread:

    http://www.realjock.com/gayforums/1262688


    Sk8Tex saidWell I am gonna throw this out there for those that think along the lines of the 20 somethines in Art_Decos reply.

    I was with my ex for 5 years when he was diagnosed with AIDS, which mean't he had it the whole time he was with me and his cell count had gotten to low enough levels to be diagnosed with end stage AIDS. He was older than me by about 15 years and he knew, but didn't say a thing to me for 4 1/2 years until he got sick with pneumonia and was hospitalized. Even then he didn't come right out and tell me, I just over heard what the nurses were talking about with his chart and put 2 and 2 together.

    I freaked out.. we split up, and immediatly I started looking at myself differently in the mirror each time I saw myself. I guess I had begun to accept on some psychological level that I now have his disease and theres nothing that I can do to get rid of it. So.. I looked myself in the face in the mirror time and time again and thought to myself, hell even said aloud a few times.. that I had just ruined my life. Thought things like who is going to want to be with me now that I have this sickness, and that all I had to look forward to was years of sickness and medication spent alone.

    It wasn't until about 6 months later when I met someone who was HIV positive (he was 32) that started teaching me more and more about it. After weeks of being a bitch to me he finally convinced me to go to the local clinic and get tested to see if it was official, and to get on some medication if it turned out positive. He went with me and sat in the chair next to me trying to provide comfort, but nothing was going to comfort me while waiting for that test result to come out. The nurse called me in and asked me all kinds of questions about my previous partner, and then he told me I was HIV negative.

    I immediatly started crying right there in front of this stranger and I couldnt stop. Somewhere between sobbing and laughing out of this immense sense of joy I was feeling that I somehow dodged this bullet I choked out a, "Thank you." and went back outside in the waiting room to tell me friend that it came up negative. He was happy for me, but at the same time I was sad for him because his story didnt turn out so well.

    This changed my life and the way I see people who are HIV+ and with AIDS. There is a severe lack of talking about it, as well as many lies that for whatever reason people just dont come right out and question when the thought occurs to them. Since then I have met several men here and there who are HIV+ or living with AIDS, and they live in a state of fear of being found out by their friends and other people they hang out with. That it will somehow push everyone away from them and no one will want to associate with them. There seems to be a deep sense of shame attached to being HIV+ and maybe that has to disappear first before people can just talk about it openly.

    Anyways that's my $0.02


    Yeah...we are not even half way into the month...but I still nominate it.
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    Dec 07, 2010 2:34 AM GMT



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    Dec 07, 2010 2:40 AM GMT
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    Dec 07, 2010 2:47 AM GMT
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    Dec 07, 2010 2:48 AM GMT
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    Dec 07, 2010 2:59 AM GMT
    T---_blue_aussie saidBut I myself a pure homosexual, for 45 years,



    I'm kidding.


    +7 for Metta8's choice.
  • Sk8Tex

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    Dec 07, 2010 3:09 AM GMT
    Oh wow! Didn't expect that lol icon_redface.gif

    Thanks guys, I don't know what to say icon_biggrin.gificon_redface.gif
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    Dec 07, 2010 3:12 AM GMT
    Thats OK heartlessrobb. I know your hate rules, in fact I found Art Deco's feeling self serving, but then he has not endured what I have, or for as long either. yet he did go out of his way to let us know how he thought all homosexuals where dirty, and even tryed to blame one once for him feeling like this. But........of course I could not own that, as it never had anything to do with one, and my standard of living is most likely higher too. So one can understand his devastation, as this would of made him one of the dirty ones; the untouchables, unworthy of love; not my way of thinking

    After being in the epicentre of the Aides epidemic in the 80s, when I have survived a number of people go out of their way to pass on their infection to one, yet all failed. I have never once cried at the results of my test always coming back -. So I know you will understand one seeing Reds reaction, as self serving.

    Oh yet since I was molested by a bisexual thus not a pure homosexual at the age of five, I have been a pure homosexual for all that time, I never have hid behind a women, or had the respite of being a pseudo heterosexual either, and if you had not of made your comment I would not of made this post either.

    But one is not responsible for your many issues either, you need to carry your own luggage possums.

    Yes I am a pure homosexual and I am not the only one either. We have a right to have a banner of our own as the bisexuals do.

    So just as one is a pure homosexual the real thing, I'm also a True Blue Aussie the real thing tooicon_biggrin.gificon_cool.gif
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    Dec 07, 2010 3:32 AM GMT
    HeartRobb said
    T---_blue_aussie saidBut I myself a pure homosexual, for 45 years,



    I'm kidding.


    +7 for Metta8's choice.


    Then that would add up to about the same as Art Deco was straighticon_razz.gif

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    Dec 07, 2010 5:49 AM GMT

    Sk8Tex said "Well I am gonna throw this out there for those that think along the lines of the 20 somethines in Art_Decos reply.

    I was with my ex for 5 years when he was diagnosed with AIDS, which mean't he had it the whole time he was with me and his cell count had gotten to low enough levels to be diagnosed with end stage AIDS. He was older than me by about 15 years and he knew, but didn't say a thing to me for 4 1/2 years until he got sick with pneumonia and was hospitalized. Even then he didn't come right out and tell me, I just over heard what the nurses were talking about with his chart and put 2 and 2 together.

    I freaked out.. we split up, and immediatly I started looking at myself differently in the mirror each time I saw myself. I guess I had begun to accept on some psychological level that I now have his disease and theres nothing that I can do to get rid of it. So.. I looked myself in the face in the mirror time and time again and thought to myself, hell even said aloud a few times.. that I had just ruined my life. Thought things like who is going to want to be with me now that I have this sickness, and that all I had to look forward to was years of sickness and medication spent alone.

    It wasn't until about 6 months later when I met someone who was HIV positive (he was 32) that started teaching me more and more about it. After weeks of being a bitch to me he finally convinced me to go to the local clinic and get tested to see if it was official, and to get on some medication if it turned out positive. He went with me and sat in the chair next to me trying to provide comfort, but nothing was going to comfort me while waiting for that test result to come out. The nurse called me in and asked me all kinds of questions about my previous partner, and then he told me I was HIV negative.

    I immediatly started crying right there in front of this stranger and I couldnt stop. Somewhere between sobbing and laughing out of this immense sense of joy I was feeling that I somehow dodged this bullet I choked out a, "Thank you." and went back outside in the waiting room to tell me friend that it came up negative. He was happy for me, but at the same time I was sad for him because his story didnt turn out so well.

    This changed my life and the way I see people who are HIV+ and with AIDS. There is a severe lack of talking about it, as well as many lies that for whatever reason people just dont come right out and question when the thought occurs to them. Since then I have met several men here and there who are HIV+ or living with AIDS, and they live in a state of fear of being found out by their friends and other people they hang out with. That it will somehow push everyone away from them and no one will want to associate with them. There seems to be a deep sense of shame attached to being HIV+ and maybe that has to disappear first before people can just talk about it openly.

    Anyways that's my $0.02"

    + 8!

    -Bill this time