im so stupid.

  • kjm1990

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    Mar 19, 2008 7:38 AM GMT
    ok i was really three weeks ago,i was drunk,and emo,got in to me car an crashed it.i was in hosp for 2 weeks i got out to day found out my cuz hred i died an he ran in 2 a pole.now im alone...what do i do?
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    Mar 19, 2008 12:41 PM GMT
    I really sorry to hear about this tragedy commodoreboi. It's not clear in your post, did your cousin die in the crash?

    In either case you can't blame yourself for what happened to your cousin. What happened to him is really unfortunate but it is not something you had any control over.

    I hope your accident will really alter your perception of drinking and driving. Hopefully you will not ever get behind the wheel of a car after drinking again. I only say this out of concern for your life, those who may be in the car with you and the unsuspecting innocent who could be impacted if the next accident involves another vehicle or pedestrian.

    Please make sure you talk about all of this with someone to help you get through this. I think it's a good start that you sought some assistance from the RJ community but you really need more personal attention. Look to your family, friends and if possible a professional to help you sort this out. It's really important to work through this because it will absolutely have a huge psychological impact on you for years to come.

    Good luck getting through all of this!
  • ShawnTX

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    Mar 19, 2008 1:06 PM GMT
    commodoreboi saidi got out to day found out my cuz hred i died an he ran in 2 a pole.now im alone...what do i do?


    Yeah, I'm not really clear on this part myself.

    I'm glad to see that you're ok after your accident, although I have a hard time sympathizing with someone who chose to drink and drive. But we all make errors in judgement and thankfully you lived through it and can see it wasn't the smartest thing you've ever done.

    If something can get you so emotional to the point that you drink and drive, that's an issue that needs to be addressed. Hopefully you have someone you can confide in.
  • kjm1990

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    Mar 19, 2008 1:49 PM GMT
    when my cusin herd i crashed me lost control of his 4x4 and fliped it,i live on a farm and i was trying to comite sucide. i know it was wrong and wish i could go back in time because now im alive and my best mate,my rock my cusin is dead.....icon_cry.gif
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    Mar 19, 2008 1:55 PM GMT
    Oh boy, this is a very difficult post to read. Have you talked to a professional about your emotional state? I seem to recall this is not your first attempt at suicide.

    Life can be very difficult at times, but it is worth living. You just need to combat and defeat your self-destructive demons.

  • ShawnTX

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    Mar 19, 2008 1:56 PM GMT
    I'm sorry to hear about your cousin. Over the past year I've had to deal with 12 deaths in my family. They can completely destroy you emotionally.

    You need some serious help, more help than the guys here on RJ can provide. Your suicidal tendencies and the death of your cousin (whom you're obviously very close with), can combine to make a very lethal emotional and mental situation for you.

    The best advice anyone on here can give you is get some professional help. You need a therapist who can help you work through all the pain you're experiencing in your life.
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    Mar 19, 2008 1:56 PM GMT
    I'm sorry to hear that icon_sad.gif if there is anything i could do to help i would...
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    Mar 19, 2008 2:07 PM GMT
    Is this for real, cb?

    Dont be jerking us just to get attention. Send me a link to your cuzin's obit.
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    Mar 19, 2008 4:40 PM GMT
    I did not realize this was a suicide attempt and worse I did not realize this was not the first. Please do yourself a huge favor and get some professional help quickly.

    As much as the RJ community would like to help you, you really need professional attention. Many people have felt the way you do about life and have been able to find their way through to the other side with some help. There is absolutely no shame in seeking help from a professional.

    Please don't continue to do this to yourself and your family.
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    Mar 19, 2008 4:54 PM GMT

    Actually, I wood luv 2 repli, but your grammar was so messed up from the start that I couldn't hardly read it.
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    Mar 19, 2008 5:05 PM GMT
    Sorry to hear about your problems. Be strong dude. I feel as if your trying to reach out. I suggest professional help, we can only do so much on here. Hopefully you can get back on track. Plz, hang in there.
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    Mar 19, 2008 6:02 PM GMT
    I'm sorry to hear about your cousin, I know it must be a difficult loss. I have to agree with several other responses here - I think you should get some counseling to help yourself get over this. The problem sounds like more than you can tackle on your own. I'm sure that your local doctor or hospital can advise you on the best professional to see.

    Good Luck - I'm with you!