"God is it too much to ask to be loved...is it too much to ask to have someone to love for the rest of my life?"
No, it's not, but it's also not easily come by.
" .....is it greedy to not be lonely for the remaining pathetic years of my life?"
No, it isn't. And just why are your years pathetic?
" ...........i am tired, lonely, sad and , god why u made me gay??....i bet if i was straight it would be much easier to be with someone....is it?"
It might be, there are 90% more of them than gays.
If you want me to get all preachy and spiritual (being christian) I might say that god made you gay to be part of god's Name; we are all syllables of it. *cheezy grin*
I was tired, lonely and sad at times, too. It means that you will appreciate a good love that much more.