fizzle saidI never thought of myself as unhealthy, but after coming back from study abroad and losing a lot of weight while there, and not working out regularly for about 6-7 months now I feel completely inept about even trying anymore!
Has anyone else had a period like this?
How did you pull yourself through it?
Oh, my love...I had eight years of it. It was complicated by emotional things, and self-judgement and loathing on an epic scale. And after eight years (which should have been eight days or weeks at best) I finally grabbed a rope just as my head went under. And if I can do it, you can.
You have value. You have worth and beauty and strength you don't even KNOW about yet. And, you have time. Time to simply step back into the gym and do a light, simple circuit for a week. One day at a time, just one week. You don't have to go back after day five. But you will. But all you have to do is actually start. I know it sounds glib and cliche, but I promise you it works. You'll find that moment where it clicks, where the switch connects and the circuit closes and the light goes on that says "oh, right, this is what it feels like to be ME. To press on and go through this journey toward unleashing and feeding and growing and nurturing ME, the me that loves the reward day to day and the results of seeing effort pay off step by step. I'm not that guy over there, I'm myself, and this is MY body, my goal, my journey and NOBODY not even my darkest doubting self can prevent me from achieving that."
I BELIEVE in you, "fizzle", and you wouldn't be here and asking if you didn't believe in yourself, buddy.
xo[/quoteYes, this. .....Definitely this.