Jan 25, 2011 7:30 PM GMT
Okies... so two weeks ago I broke up with my bf of two years. It's not what i wanted. But every night he kept hinting that he doesn't love me. Plus he only wanted to see me when he had nothing else. I was on more than a filling in his life. However we lived together and stuff basically... However now its over. And I can't control my emotions. I tried to take it back, but if had already been done and he wanted it kept that way, But like I said, i can't control anything... Last night I randomly just started screaming and going balistic! I just ran outside in the pouring rain and danced... it helped so much, but it's still not enough. It's killing me. I can't work without losing my temper or going nuts. I feel so unstable... AND IM ALWAYS IN CONTROL! I can't handle this... It's tearing me apart... And I don't know what to do. I just wanna sleep round or just dig a whole and die in it. I'm all over the place. And at first i thought i could keep it friendly. But I honestly never wanna see him again which is hard because hes a senoir above me at my work. My life is ruined. I just... i unno... I've got a proposal to move away... should I? will it help?