Feel like giving up!!

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    Feb 11, 2011 7:52 AM GMT
    I'm tired of being a fucking piece of trash and a loser!! I wanna die!! I'm tired of people telling me I'm a loser because I don't have a degree!! I have limitions for god sakes!! It's too late for me to go and get one anyway because I'm too old!! That's what I'm told!! I won't go at this age to just start as freshman with only two classes!! I'm also tired of being so fucking ugly!! I know noone here looks at me and if you will respond rude don't respond at all!! I'm so fucking tired of being put down!! I wanna be DEAD!! If someone messages me it better be nice!!
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    Feb 11, 2011 12:53 PM GMT
    Well go buy yourself a fucking gun and get it over with.

    PS. I went to college at age 31, and started getting in shape at age 39. Now I'm living my childhood dream.
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    Feb 11, 2011 12:57 PM GMT
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    Feb 11, 2011 1:00 PM GMT
    paulflexes saidWell go buy yourself a fucking gun and get it over with.

    If you shoot yourself your beneficiaries, if any, won't be able to collect on your life insurance. Do you want to further impoverish your loved ones, if any?
    Better try something that mimics natural causes.
  • LJay

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    Feb 11, 2011 1:14 PM GMT
    Giving up is easy. Facing life is a bitch.

    My uncle was in WWII, married, had two kids, bought a house, worked full time in a town so small he could go home for lunch. He read, took night classes and worked like hell to finally get a degree when he was nearly retired. There are thousands of stories like this.

    Start living dude. You can.
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    Feb 11, 2011 1:21 PM GMT
    I have been listening to "Firework" for weeks and enjoying it, but never saw the video. That's a powerful video. I got emotional...thanks for posting. Very appropriate for this thread!
  • gsh1964

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    Feb 11, 2011 1:22 PM GMT
    24 and too old to go to college???

    There's something else that's going on with you and it has nothing to do with your issues with college.

    Fix yourself first, go get a shrink.
  • HndsmKansan

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    Feb 11, 2011 1:30 PM GMT
    First, your listening to other people and believing them as to your looks and your limitations.

    Going to college is easier than ever before. You can "go" online, in person and practically choose a night or nights you might want to go. If you want to do it... and it will benefit you financially, do it.... they can help you with financial aid, if that is a factor. Who gives a damn what other people say!

    As far as your looks and your body, there are things you can change by effort... and some you can't. If someone calls you ugly... don't act ugly, just know you aren't an ugly person... I doubt if you look that way.

    I'd evaluate your priorities and make changes.. a counselor isn't a bad idea, but the bottom line is, you aren't trash, unless you believe you are and treat yourself that way. Your 24 years old.. just getting started. Plan to make it a good life ahead by working.. putting forth effort to make it that way!
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    Feb 11, 2011 2:53 PM GMT
    1. You are not too old to go to college or any other place to study. I know more than one person who started studying in their forties. If you can't do it on campus, you can do it through distance learning or some other option that suits you best. Do you know what you want to study?

    2. There is no such thing as a loser. You sound like a little ungrateful, self-pitying person when you call yourself that. Wake up. Look around you. Make a list of all the things you are grateful for - start focussing on the good things about you. Being a loser is all in the mind. Snap out of it or get help from a counsellor if you feel you can't do it on your own.

    3. One man's ugly is another man's dream come true. Look around you. Is everyone you see around you handsome and good-looking? Don't you see couples where one looks attractive to you and the other not? Beauty is in the mind.

    You can't be ugly! What? Do have a potato nose? Is your hair falling in patches? Is your face covered in burn scars? Does your pet dog run for cover when he sees your face? Do you have to glue your mega-ears to your head in case the wind blows you away? Come on, buddy!!! You aint ugly. Nobody is! What do you like about yourself? Will working out help you look better (in your own eyes?). Accept what you can't change (we all have things we can't change) and change what you can.

    4. So, you want to DIE? Do you know how many people are fighting in wars, suffering famine, battling HIV and Cancer with every ounce of will they still have, just to stay alive? And here you are throwing your life away because you're "too old" to study at 24; because you have "limitations", unlike everyone else on the planet; because you think you're "ugly" (sorry, thats "fucking ugly"); because some idiots call you a "loser"?????

    5. Let me tell you something: You need to love yourself a little more. Treat yourself kindly. Don't call yourself all these negative things. Take care of your body. Fill your mind with truthfull good thoughts about yourself. And thank G-d every day for at least 10 good things in your life. BE GRATEFULL!
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    Feb 11, 2011 6:23 PM GMT
    CajunGuy149 saidI'm tired of being a fucking piece of trash and a loser!! I wanna die!! I'm tired of people telling me I'm a loser because I don't have a degree!! I have limitions for god sakes!! It's too late for me to go and get one anyway because I'm too old!! That's what I'm told!! I won't go at this age to just start as freshman with only two classes!! I'm also tired of being so fucking ugly!! I know noone here looks at me and if you will respond rude don't respond at all!! I'm so fucking tired of being put down!! I wanna be DEAD!! If someone messages me it better be nice!!


    How are we going to look at you if you don't have a pic icon_question.gif
    Maybe you should work on that buddy...icon_wink.gif
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    Feb 11, 2011 6:25 PM GMT
    paulflexes saidWell go buy yourself a fucking gun and get it over with.

    PS. I went to college at age 31, and started getting in shape at age 39. Now I'm living my childhood dream.


    stop being such a mean asshole. obviously this person is hurt and vulnerable. have some compasion
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    Feb 11, 2011 6:58 PM GMT
    Convincing yourself that you are trash or a loser is like a person convincing themselves that they are poor without realizing they have a bank account with a million dollars in it.
    this too shall pass.
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    Feb 11, 2011 7:17 PM GMT
    paulflexes saidWell go buy yourself a fucking gun and get it over with.

    PS. I went to college at age 31, and started getting in shape at age 39. Now I'm living my childhood dream.


    Wow! your childhood dream was to be a dickhead? Congratulations you made it!!
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    Feb 11, 2011 7:27 PM GMT
    Ok, so I don't know how much to say or so little to say. I would just take a step back, breath, and work on you.

    First, Everyday wake up and say you are a wonderful person and can bring a lot to the table for many valuable reasons.

    Second, Joint a gym. Even if you only walk on a treadmill, get those endorphins released to help make yourself feel better.

    Third, Don’t listen to other people, they only aggravate you or “DISS” you because they have issues…

    Everyone in life has value… and bring something to the table. YOU!!! Just need to stop and find out what that is… That is somewhat what School is for, no matter what your age. When I was in college, I had someone in his 50’s in my architecture program! That was a huge career change, because he didn’t have any education prior!
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    Feb 11, 2011 7:31 PM GMT
    Bill Gates quit college

    RIP Ray Kroc founder of McDonalds, no degree

    The underlying principal in the American Diaspora is that anything is possible.

    I work in Education and half of the PhD’s I've met cannot survive beyond their little niche (specialization) most are the biggest arrogant idiots I've encountered. Formal education is a croc of shit.

    The smartest people I’ve encountered are self taught (driven).

    Life is about doing what makes you happy. Work on that and fuck everyone else.



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    Feb 11, 2011 7:36 PM GMT
    Love these dire first posts from faceless profiles.......icon_rolleyes.gif
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    Feb 11, 2011 7:54 PM GMT
    paulflexes saidWell go buy yourself a fucking gun and get it over with.

    PS. I went to college at age 31, and started getting in shape at age 39. Now I'm living my childhood dream.
    . Ur right maybe I should do that.
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    Feb 11, 2011 10:15 PM GMT
    You need to calm down. Nobody needs to shout in this forum; It's annoying. icon_rolleyes.gif
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    Feb 11, 2011 10:20 PM GMT
    Sorry you feel that way Cajun- find a trained professional to help guide you through these troubled times.

    MadeinMich said
    paulflexes saidWell go buy yourself a fucking gun and get it over with.

    PS. I went to college at age 31, and started getting in shape at age 39. Now I'm living my childhood dream.


    stop being such a mean asshole. obviously this person is hurt and vulnerable. have some compasion


    Paulflexes only knows how to do two things- be and asshole and type up inappropriate sexual comments.



    EDIT: You're 24! How is that too old to start school!?! icon_evil.gif
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    Feb 11, 2011 11:05 PM GMT
    I don't know if you're reading any of the responses, CajunGuy, but here's something to keep in mind: just realizing and accepting that you are gay, and that means we already live a much different life than 'everyone else', you DON'T HAVE TO play by the same expectations and rules. For one, most of us don't have kids, and very few of us ever find relationships that last.

    Yea, it sucks, but guess what? We don't have kids to slow us down or make our lives so complicated that we can't afford other things. We have so much time on our hands that most straight people would envy that - particularly as we hit our 30's. While they are dealing with 1-2 kids and a marriage they may or may not be interested in anymore, we get to bypass that and do what WE want to do with our lives. A college degree in 2011 is basically the same as a high school diploma in 1996. It is a necessity for some people but ask a lot of new graduates and they'll tell you that, no, they didn't find a job and now they're doing the same job they did before going to college (telemarketing, supermarket checker, etc) and have $25 grand in loans to pay back. You have to look, but there are other roads to success besides a degree, especially now that everyone and their Aunt Linda has one.

    Also, don't buy into the gay men's idea that you have to be successful, rich, perfect, urban-chic with a $1 million condo, etc...the problem with most gay men is because they've spent so much time isolating themselves they've built this image of what another gay man (their ideal) is supposed to be, yet there are few if any gay men who are that young, that successful, and that mentally/emotionally stable. We also have a culture of young gay men who have been mislead by the porn industry to believe that gay men are supposed to look a certain way, and in real life, very few gay men actually look like that. This is why so many young gay men aren't coming out, since they feel they either don't look like that so why bother, or they'll never find someone who looks like that so they give up. It's ironic because in theory, 'coming out' used to be a celebration of differences and acknowledging that it's okay to not be like everyone else...now, it's buying into an over-privileged, overeducated group of arrogant, narcissistic men who are nastier than any of the straight bullies you would have encountered while closeted.

    I am starting to meet gay men who regret ever coming out in the first place because they're seeing a selection that has dwindled down to nothing. If they would have 'lied' and stayed with a woman, they figure, at least they could have had a chance to be a father. Now, since coming out and realizing how few gay men are really out there, how few are really ready for a relationship and a lifelong partner, they've found nobody. We have caviar tastes on a hot dog budget - sure, it's fine to be picky and know exactly what you want, but having so few gay men who are at the same place in life, want the same things, and are equally interested in you, it's gonna be a long wait.
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    Feb 11, 2011 11:32 PM GMT
    I'm so sorry you feel this way, there's million of people trying to fight for their lives and trying to make as much as they can. You're only 24 years old.. thats young, my sister is starting college and she's the same age as you, any problem? not even one. People mind their own business.. common.. its college not high school where all this kids go around with their dramas and looks. As for the comment that no one looks at you.. maybe its cause you dont have a pic?

    You dont need to be good looking, cute, smoking hot or anything, just you... It would be good if you were.. but most people take personalities more than physical looks.. You could be smoking hot but if u're a jerk.. it gets you no where else than just saying NEXT lol..

    You need to learn to appreciate yourself, you need to think as you're the best even though if you're not. Get in the gym, get into any sport or perform a hobby you like. Be you and live your life.. no one can't complain or say anything about you.. you're the only one who can, and if you judge yourself like that.. then you let others do so.. Show some respect to yourself.

    People like judging ;) if you dont have a degree then they criticize.. if you do have one.. they criticize, whatever you do in life will be criticized or appreciated, thats why you can't live thinking on what people say about what you do... You're the only one who knows what you want and what to do to get what you want.. Just do it, as long as you feel good and you like what you're doing.. =]

    Good luck!
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    Feb 11, 2011 11:48 PM GMT
    Anyone having trouble with life's difficulties should listen to the song Jump Rope by Blue October, here's the link:

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g7eyqCQYBGY
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    Feb 11, 2011 11:55 PM GMT
    A1EX saidSorry you feel that way Cajun- find a trained professional to help guide you through these troubled times.

    MadeinMich said
    paulflexes saidWell go buy yourself a fucking gun and get it over with.

    PS. I went to college at age 31, and started getting in shape at age 39. Now I'm living my childhood dream.


    stop being such a mean asshole. obviously this person is hurt and vulnerable. have some compasion


    Paulflexes only knows how to do two things- be and asshole and type up inappropriate sexual comments.



    EDIT: You're 24! How is that too old to start school!?! icon_evil.gif


    Thanks you helped me a lot just by saying thisicon_smile.gif
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    Feb 12, 2011 12:06 AM GMT
    CajunGuy149 saidI'm tired of being a fucking piece of trash and a loser!! I wanna die!! I'm tired of people telling me I'm a loser because I don't have a degree!! I have limitions for god sakes!! It's too late for me to go and get one anyway because I'm too old!! That's what I'm told!! I won't go at this age to just start as freshman with only two classes!! I'm also tired of being so fucking ugly!! I know noone here looks at me and if you will respond rude don't respond at all!! I'm so fucking tired of being put down!! I wanna be DEAD!! If someone messages me it better be nice!!


    The only reason why people keep calling you a loser is because of paragraphs like this.

    If you believe you'll never amount to anything... you won't. It's as simple as that. No one in the world got to be where they are because they had messed up thoughts like these.

    And the bit about having limitations when it comes to not having a degree is bullshit. College is doable for anyone with the slightest bit of intelligence.

    On the one hand I want to encourage you to get a life and make something of yourself, but you've pretty much have your mind set on being a loser already, so what's the use...
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    Feb 12, 2011 12:06 AM GMT
    Thanks to those who made me feel better and encouraged me. To those who hurt me more there is not thanks.