Feb 12, 2011 6:22 PM GMT
So I definitely know I am gay because I like men a lot, but I recently started going out with a girl.
Background: I was new to the city, she asked me out, I said why not. Then she called me to her house for dinner, and we ended up having sex.
The problem is, for the first time in my life I masturbated while thinking about having sex with a girl. Before going to her house for the second time, I jerked off while thinking of her. I tried to picturize men but my thought went back to sex with her. This has never happened before, I have always masturbated while thinking about men. I am really worried because I want to stay gay.
There is no element of love involved, I can have emotional attachment to men only; I am more than sure about that. Is this just a phase? I tried to delay the second meeting but she just kept on insisting. I am thinking of just stopping all this sex with her, but am afraid she would really feel bad.
Help please!
P.S I am not out to anyone so suddenly can't say to her that now I am gay!
Background: I was new to the city, she asked me out, I said why not. Then she called me to her house for dinner, and we ended up having sex.
The problem is, for the first time in my life I masturbated while thinking about having sex with a girl. Before going to her house for the second time, I jerked off while thinking of her. I tried to picturize men but my thought went back to sex with her. This has never happened before, I have always masturbated while thinking about men. I am really worried because I want to stay gay.
There is no element of love involved, I can have emotional attachment to men only; I am more than sure about that. Is this just a phase? I tried to delay the second meeting but she just kept on insisting. I am thinking of just stopping all this sex with her, but am afraid she would really feel bad.
Help please!
P.S I am not out to anyone so suddenly can't say to her that now I am gay!