Feb 15, 2011 7:57 PM GMT
My name is Dave, 23, and I live in Indiana. Im not exactly sure when I realized I was gay, but I distincly remember being 10 or 11 and getting upset with a friend for making fun of a more feminine gay man for crying on TV. I asked him would he hate me if I was gay? It was at the time a truly hypothetical question but since then it has resonated in me. I really definetly realized I was gay about three years ago.When I would make love to my (now ex) girlfriend and she would cum twice or three times and I wouldn't get beyond maybe the pre-cum phase. It felt good, but I wasn't entirely turned on. Then I began following bodybuilders, really for the fitness appreciation at first but I realized soon that I my eyes were drawn..ya know...hehehe. Well since then I have remained single (minus the occasional fling) and I was thinking about just being straight (no pun intended) with my friends and family. Some of them I have grown up with my whole life, yet they are still pretty biggoted and homophobic to average gay guy they see at a bar. Its not that I am afraid of being ostracized, it might just really mess up the friendship by bringing in the question of "what's Dave's real intentions?" For all I know they might already suspect. Anyway seeing as how 99% of you manly men on here are already comfortable with yourselves you've probably already gone through this at one time or another, I just want advice. If nothing else please just tell me your story so i dont feel so goddamn alone all the time, I just want some perspective from someone who understands. Thank you