Feb 21, 2011 10:21 AM GMT
Me and this guy have been best friends for 4 years now. Hes straight and I'm gay but i think he knows I'm gay even though we don't talk about it or have ever discussed it. To sum it up it is the most fucked up relationship ever. We recently stopped talking because we got into a fight. I think it's my fault and now he wont talk to me. I love him so much but I can't take it anymore. I can't take knowing that our relationship will never go anywhere and I just need to learn how to pick myself up and move on, the weird part is I never been through something like this before and I have this huge pain in my chest. I feel like my heart is just being squeezed and every time i think about him not being in my life anymore I panic. I just wanna know how to make this go away, how to be strong and just move on. If anyone has any pointers I'd appreciate it.