Everyone's dear friend Molly

  • mcwclewis

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    Feb 21, 2011 2:14 PM GMT
    So yeah... Molly (MDMA) (the drug, for those of you who don't know drugs) is an extremely popular drug in my neck of the woods right now.... like it's scary how easy it is to get ahold of it.

    I, for a while, would do molly only on occasion... and it didn't get in the way of anything, didn't cause any real problems....

    After a while, especially after I started pulling in bigger paychecks, I started doing the shit 3-5 nights a week with my "best friend." I put best friend in quotes because as much as I love the kid, he's part of why I have such easy access to this drug. Even if I don't have money, he will, and we end up staying up for days, not eating, not sleeping, and speaking in gibberish most of the time (mind you I don't think this source of Molly is just MDMA, because as far as I know it wouldn't have that effect)

    So now I've been missing school, going into work with no sleep and shaking, losing a lot of myself, really.

    I just met... or re-met, I should say, a guy who seems to be awesome.... and I blew it, because I was coming down from a 3 day binge... and made a total ass out of myself...

    Anyways, enough bitching about the problems....

    I'm writing this because out of all of my friends, only one had any inclination to tell me that he thought I was abusing this shit. A ton of people just ignored it or talked behind my back, and let me dig myself deeper into this hole...

    If you have a friend that is abusing drugs... please say something to them. It's easy to convince yourself it's not a problem, but someone else telling you that it is a problem can help open your eyes.

    I'm making an appointment with a drug and alchohol counselor today... we'll see what happens
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    Feb 21, 2011 2:37 PM GMT
    Good luck with the councilor. When the drug interferes with work, school, or your social life, it is seriously time to seek treatment.

    I, too, have tried E and enjoyed it. I can see the appeal of rolling, which was why I made sure to limit the number of times I did it.
    I've seen a few friends become e-tards. Turning your brain into swiss cheese is no joke.

    I'll also add that if you think that a friend or family member is abusing alcohol, be a friend and get him the support he needs.

    Al-Anon for Families of Alcoholics (88icon_cool.gif 425-2666
    Alcohol & Drug Abuse Hotline 1-800-729-6686
    Cocaine Anonymous (800) 347-8998
    Families Anonymous (800) 736-9805
    National Council on Alcoholism and Drug Dependence Hopeline (800) 622-2255
    National Institute on Drug Abuse Hotline (800) 662-4357

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    Feb 21, 2011 3:13 PM GMT

    Very sorry to hear about your "friend", Molly....surely NOT a true friend!!
    I've been clean and sober for over 20 years...and MDA (as it was known back in the late 70's) was the drug of choice for the disco days.
    What ever the drug is, is of no consequence. A drug is a drug is a drug...and you can include alcohol in that genre, too!!
    Oswego is not so small as to NOT have a hotline for meetings. Get your butt there TODAY!! Don't wait til you've lost everything, as I did, before you get help. The counselor is a good start...but hopefully, he will direct you to meetings right away.
    You MUST disassociate yourself from anyone who uses any drugs....if you're
    serious about recovery.
    I used every drug available (except heroin) at one time or another...and you can
    trust me when I say that if you have an addictive personality, no matter what it is...you WILL become addicted to it.
    This is ONLY MY OPINION... and you will do whatever you will...but I pray that you do what you KNOW is right...
    Best wishes.... David
  • mcwclewis

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    Feb 22, 2011 2:36 AM GMT
    It took me a long time to stop denying that I had a problem...

    I'm really hoping i'm strong enough to get through this...

    Thank you for the support
  • HndsmKansan

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    Feb 22, 2011 2:45 AM GMT
    When I started reading your thread, I thought, "what the hell is he talking about".. being pretty clueless about anything drug related......

    Glad you have a friend who told you what he thought. Most "friends" would rather ignore it, feel they shouldn't say anything or are caught up in their own lives. It is tough to say something, but glad they did.

    Also the fact you are on a "health & fitness" site indicates you want to do
    something than keep company with "Molly". I hope you see the counselor
    and develop friendships that encourage physical and drug free fitness.
    I hope this can be a real change for you.... keep us informed and the best of luck.....

  • creature

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    Feb 22, 2011 2:46 AM GMT

    I'm sorry to hear you were battling a drug problem. But the great news is that you took the first step, which is admitting you had the problem. That is something many people unfortunately refuse to do before it is too late. I am glad to hear you are reclaiming your life. Welcome back.
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    Feb 22, 2011 2:52 AM GMT
    Now you know you have a REAL friend who cares about you ...
    Congrats on your first step ... and good luck for the following ones ....icon_cool.gif
  • MuscleComeBac...

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    Feb 22, 2011 3:03 AM GMT
    One day at a time.

    You can survive this, with integrity, determination, tenacity, patience, and prayer.

    One day at a time.

    Good luck.
  • mcwclewis

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    Feb 22, 2011 11:51 AM GMT
    I think I'm going to be fine... it was a crutch for a while but honestly I know I don't need it even though I enjoy it.

    I'm not sure if there's going to be withdrawal symptoms or anything, there probably will be. If so, then that's really going to be the hardest part. Keeping myself in a postition where I'm unable to access it shouldnt really be too hard. I already told the one person I got it from that I had a problem and asked him to stop selling to me, and despite the stereotypical shadiness of a drug dealer, he's caring enough to at least do this much... so far, at least.

    Well, I'm off to bed.

    Thank you all for the concern and advice
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    Feb 22, 2011 12:24 PM GMT
    Jesus, I am so naive.
    I saw this topic and was like OMFG A THREAD ABOUT THE BIG COMFY COUCH?!?

    I thought you meant this Molly:

    I am disappoint. icon_sad.gif