Today, I buried my friend

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    Feb 27, 2011 1:27 AM GMT
    just got back from my friends funeral, it's so surreal, this whole thing feels like a dream... more like a nightmare and i just want to wake up!

    The night I found out he was killed, I saw his name pop up on Facebook and I thought to myself, "I haven't talked to him in a while, i should see how he's doing" That's when I realized I had clicked on his memorial event page. My heart sunk and I cried. I knew this guy from high school and we graduated the same year. I think this is especially rough on me because this was the guy I had a crush on for the longest time. He was one of those guys that went out of his way to help other people before himself, he always used to help me out in class when I was having trouble with a subject. This guy accomplished more in his 20 years, than most people do in a lifetime.

    I wish had the chance to talk to him one more time, I wish we could have hung out one last time, and I wish he was still here. You never know when you're going to lose someone, so tell those people who you love, that you love them and tell your friends how special they are to you. This sounds so cliche but people ignore until it happens.

    Rest Peacefully buddy. Ill miss you always.

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    Feb 27, 2011 1:32 AM GMT
    My condolences and a wonderful statement on his behalf. And to find out in such a manner. It would have been delivered eloquently as a eulogy.
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    Feb 27, 2011 2:17 AM GMT

    "I wish had the chance to talk to him one more time"

    This is something we all need to think about. Losing someone close can happen in a split second....never miss the opportunity to tell them that you care...tomorrow might be too late.
    Feeling real badly for you, buddy.
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    Feb 27, 2011 2:52 AM GMT
    Death my brother, is a harder thing for kids to handle these days... and hard on us older guys that managed to get through life without being confronted with it. I lost some amazing and famous friends all to either a gunshot to the head or an overdose on Heroine.

    Eventually your mind will deal with so many layers of pain that you just acknowledge there will be more layers to be prepared for because it is not about to end anytime soon. Just live your life in tribute to those memories because those of us that really care will see our friends and family once again.

    Call them back into your spirit (even though none of them have left) and don't shy away by surprise when they actually do find interesting ways to answer back to you.

    You are so unalone in this universe and though you cannot remember the many spirits you lost in past lifetimes just like the ones you will lose in this one, you better brace yourself because those forgotten in previous lives are also counting on you being alive right now in order to see you once again.

    Love is a complicated and simple thing but, one thing that is for certain is that it DOES last forever. We hardly use the big percentage of our brain because we are not meant to see God's big plan... Show some faith. The journey never ends.
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    Feb 27, 2011 3:22 AM GMT
    Oh man I am really sorry to hear this buddy. Its one of the worst things in the world to find out suddenly that someone you know has passed. I know you feel like absolute shit right now, but you gotta pick up the pieces. He sounds like he was an amazing guy. I am sure what he would want you to do is celebrate his life. Think of all the awesome times and what a great guy he was. Be happy about the great times you had and smile. I am very sorry buddy again. Its a great lesson that everyone should listen to. Hang in there...
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    Feb 27, 2011 11:03 AM GMT
    Thanks for the support guys icon_smile.gif its truly appreciated
  • hebrewman

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    Feb 27, 2011 11:08 AM GMT
    my heart goes out to you. as others have stated here, you never know. treasure those around you and always tell them how you feel. give yourself time to mourn. cry, scream and get angry, but give yourself time. honor his life, and remember those good things that brought you two together. make a donation to a good cause in his honor too..... that way his name will live forever.
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    Feb 27, 2011 11:12 AM GMT
    You have my condolences.... I think I would be an emotional wreck if a friend of mine past away....icon_cry.gif
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    Feb 27, 2011 11:12 AM GMT
    My heart and condolences go out to you. It is hard to deal with the lost of someone you have known, cared for and/ or loved. I recently lost a frat brother last month and I think about him everyday. You never know when you have fulfilled your purpose in life. Cherish the days you have here and live life to the fullest!

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    Feb 27, 2011 1:08 PM GMT
    I think I can relate to your feelings. We need more friends like that in our lives. Good friends are, if not better than, family. Sorry for the lost.
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    Feb 27, 2011 1:12 PM GMT
    I'm so sorry for your loss. *hugs* icon_sad.gif
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    Feb 27, 2011 1:17 PM GMT
    Hopefully you have friends that you can share/celebrate your friends life together. Learning about the impact your friend on others may help to keep his memory alive. Take care!
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    Feb 27, 2011 2:00 PM GMT
    hope u feel better we're all here for ya
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    Feb 27, 2011 4:53 PM GMT
    My thoughts are with you .....
    It is a very difficult time to go thru , but you have these wonderful memories together ,and that will never die .......
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    Feb 27, 2011 4:59 PM GMT
    My heart goes out to you my friend... Funerals are some of life experiences.

    thansk for sharing.
  • fitdude62

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    Feb 27, 2011 5:07 PM GMT
    Thoughts and prayers go out to you and his family.

    Peace
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    Feb 27, 2011 5:08 PM GMT
    Very sorry to hear of the loss of your friend. All the activities you are involved with will help you get through this. Whenever we lose someone close, we're always reminded that life is precious and nothing should be taken for granted. All the best to you. If you ever need to talk more, many of us are always available.
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    Feb 27, 2011 5:10 PM GMT
    Words always seem so useless in the face of emotional chaos and pain. The reality simply sucks, and I'm not always sure what takes the suck out of it.
    I do know that if proximity were less of a burden, I'm certain we'd all surround you quite literally with our arms and hold you as close as possible until you were ready to emerge again.
    Until then, we cover you with the grace of condolences, and the sincere intent to hold you and share the grief. He is with you, always. You will emerge from this a different man - a messenger for his memory, and a witness to his life. Any man who meets you now meets something of him, and that is by any definition - a miracle. The fragility of it all is so ridiculous that if we thought about it too much I suspect we'd all shut down and live very lonely lives. But we can't, or shouldn't, and so you didn't.
    We change each other, in unexpected and sometimes very painful ways - even if only by chance.
    So here's to you, your friend, and the miracle of knowing and loving someone, a great gift in spite of that annoying bag of giblets stuffed up in the cavity. None of us know exactly what to do with them, but the best cooks use them rather than throw them out, even if just to flavor the fucking gravy.
    xoxo
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    Feb 27, 2011 5:13 PM GMT
    So sorry to hear of your loss, you are rememebered in my thoughts. So difficult to find out the way you did. May your friend rest in peace, and may you find peace and solace in our support.