Mar 01, 2011 4:19 AM GMT
I am 42 and have used meth everyday for over a year. Recently I have quit and with the help of anti-depressants I feel hopeful I can stay off of it.
My problem is that I haven't gone to the gym in a year and feel really weak, out of shape and not confidant. I'm not skinny nor fat, although I should lose weight instead of gain if it were a choice of the two. (Although in all honesty, when I saw James Franco in white tights, it did look a lot like my body, although not sure that's a good thing for Franco....)
I am afraid to see the judgmental evaluations of guys in the gym, I live in an extremely superficial gay neighborhood where getting old is considered a criminal offense and being out of shape is also a felony (JK).
I'm serious. It hurts and I know what people are thinking by the bitch face expressions of disapproval and it is what has kept me away from the gym.
Any suggestions? Any ideas for a routine to get back into the swing of things