Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

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    Mar 11, 2011 9:59 AM GMT
    Not a gay topic but do any of you suffer from it or have experience of having to deal with it from others?

    What forms does it take that you experience?
  • Chackers

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    Mar 11, 2011 12:35 PM GMT
    My friends ex BF used to be only accept things in 2's. I remember handing him a buscuit while we were in the kitchen once, and he wouldnt accept it until i had snapped it into 2 halves...

    Probably not the most life affecting OCD but still a little strange to deal with.
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    Mar 11, 2011 1:18 PM GMT
    Chackers saidMy friends ex BF used to be only accept things in 2's. I remember handing him a buscuit while we were in the kitchen once, and he wouldnt accept it until i had snapped it into 2 halves...


    I'd like to see him trying that trick with a cock! icon_eek.gif
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    Mar 11, 2011 1:44 PM GMT
    Some say I have it as I get very irate when things are not symmetrical or at least packed in a neat manner. For instance: I would be visiting a friends house, and before I realize it, I am busy organizing their kitchen table to be neat and tidy. I don't even know I'm doing it. It is like second nature to me. I think it's a good trait to have.
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    Mar 11, 2011 2:02 PM GMT
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    Mar 11, 2011 2:21 PM GMT
    I've had it since I was a child. It is aggravated by stress and I was severely bullied at school, so it often encroached on my life.

    There are a wide variety of ways in which it manifests itself with me. A good example is that I have to walk down a paved sidewalk in a very specific manner (each part of my foot (ball, arch, heel) touching the same types of paving slab in the same order). If I got it wrong I would turn around, walk back (ensuring I did that correctly) then 'correct' what I had done by making the opposite mistake. These days I don't turn around but it still bothers me.

    OCD is as commonly diagnosed in the US as asthma - up to 20% of the population are considered to have it in some form.
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    Mar 11, 2011 2:28 PM GMT
    Well, there are two things to watch out for. According to psychologists and psychiatrists and the DSM-IV (Diagnostic and Stastistical Manual) that is used to diagnose, there is Obsessive compulsive disorder and Obsessive compulsive personality disorder.

    They are similar obviously but not quite the same. The first one, better known as OCD is an anxiety driven disorder. The compulsions (i.e. repetitive actions such as turning off a light switch 6, 7, or 8 times or locking and unlocking several locks several times) are manifestions of anxiety soothing coping strategies and self reinforcing behaviors. Performing these compulsions lessens the anxiety created by the obsessive thoughts the other part of the disease. These thoughts are constant worries for someone with OCD and are intrusive and often unwanted (many times "germaphobes" are OCD and will not touch surfaces without gloves or a cloth to prevent "contamination).

    Obsessive Compulsive personality disorder is more along the lines of having obsessions with order, lists, etc. The different here is that the disorder isn't typically anxiety driven to the same level as OCD above. Further they tend to be perfectionists, and this can interfere with their ability to complete a task (in school for instance the assignment will be late because they revise it 10-20 times until its "perfect"). Money is often hoarded or they are frugal and they tend to be stubborn, along with a couple of other typically negative traits.

    Some people may have mild to moderate forms of these symptoms but in order to achieve a diagnose one of the critical aspects of either disease is that it causes CLINICAL impairment to daily routine or function (i.e. the compulsions take up significant time during a day or the obsessions become so intrusive that they individual can't focus long enough to hold a job, etc).

    It's a lot of info, but hopefully it is helpful.
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    Mar 11, 2011 2:52 PM GMT
    RoddenShaw saidIf I got it wrong I would turn around, walk back (ensuring I did that correctly) then 'correct' what I had done by making the opposite mistake.


    That is interesting. I can see the "young" logic of mirroring the act to cancel it out and also that you stopped doing that as you got older, as one develops a conficting awareness that "two wrongs don't make a right" so you would respond differently, despite still perceiving it as a "wrong."

    I imagine that OCD to some degree is inherent in our brain.

    We instinctively seek out patterns in our evironment. The brain likes symmetry as it suggests a calm danger-free environment; the amygdala ( controls the "Fight or Flight" instinct) is calm.

    Any disturbance in the symmetry, to our primal nature, could signal danger. The amygdala goes on Alert.

    Your eyes dart, your blood pressure goes up and your pulse rate increases. You start breathing shallowly. Your nerves are straining for highest sensitivity and awarenes, muscles tensed ready to respond to imminent flight.

    Restoring symmetry tells the Amygdala to stand down from Alert: you breathe more normally, your muscles relax, and serotonin gives you a sense of well-being.

    That is roughly what I think is happening.
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    Mar 11, 2011 4:36 PM GMT
    I have the OCD/Tourettes/trichotillomania combo. It's a total nightmare. icon_sad.gif

    I've always had an intense fear of fire and when I was little, I would spend literally entire days doing rounds about the house making sure that anything that used electricity was turned off, even if somebody was still using it. I would also place plastic caps over unused electrical outlets and move furniture and things at least 1' away from anything that produced heat or electricity. I always hated riding home from somewhere because I would worry the whole time that the house had burned down because I wasn't there. The worst part was when my mom would turn the corner and the house would be about to come into view, but I couldn't see it yet... I would always assume the worst and start freaking out. I've gotten so nervous about this in the past that I've actually thrown up. Of course, when I got home, I'd get stuck doing my rounds again to make sure that I hadn't fucked up.

    I'm also a really bad pack rat. I keep my entire house clean except for my bedroom. I should post a picture; it's kind of unbelievable the amount of crap I have in here, 90% of which is literally garbage (empty plastic wrappers, old magazines, empty boxes, etc). I worry that I'll find a use for any of it and I'll deeply regret having thrown it out. I don't think that worry is a strong enough verb for the last sentence. My favorite time of the year is when housemates move out and leave furniture. I always adopt it all. I have 3 beds now. I am 22 years old, what the fuck do I need 3 beds for?

    The Tourettes is a blast. And by a blast, I mean excruciatingly humiliating. I have 3 tics. Sometimes I get stuck blinking for a good 30 seconds or so. I just start blinking and then I can't stop. Another one is I jerk my head to the right. Last and most embarrassing is this sniffing noise I make. Try to imagine exhaling through your nose as hard as you can. I get these in what I call attacks. I'll go an hour or two without one and then I'll have bursts of about 20 over the next minute. They vary in frequency and power, though, so sometimes I can try to pass it off as sniffling or laughing to myself. icon_confused.gif

    As for the trichotillomania, I don't even realize I'm doing it. Most of the time I look down and find that my hand is just going at any exposed body hair. Hell, sometimes my hand is going at body hair that /isn't/ exposed. Fortunately, my mind somehow knows better than to shove my hand down my pants when other people are in the room.

    Despite all this, I swear I'm really not a complete freak. I'm being treated for everything and you would never know anything's wrong with me (I hope). icon_razz.gif
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    Mar 11, 2011 4:42 PM GMT
    I have an obsession with adding/subtracting numbers to the digit ten. For example, when I drive, and if there is a vehicle in front of me, I tend to try to add/subtract the numbers of the back of the license plate to get the digit of ten. Same way with a digital clock. Have really no idea why I do it.
  • Karnage

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    Mar 11, 2011 5:22 PM GMT
    I would say that I have OCD tendencies that manifest themselves in Tourette-like tics. Basically, I have lots of tics. Sometimes my hand or leg will jerk up, I'll turn my head to the side, tap my shoulder, tweak my face, etc, etc. I think the most common one is having my joints lock up. I'll often be walking with a limp because my knee doesn't want to bend.

    There are a few reasons why I say it's compulsive and not actually Tourette's. First is that almost all of the time I could stop them if I wanted to. I can usually tell they're going to happen an instant before they do, and I could stop them or redirect them to another part of the body. Other tics are really just urges, and I feel the need to put my hand in the air, or touch the roof of the car. Those I consciously act out to relieve the 'tension'. Other times things will happen a certain number of times. It's so much a number as it is a rhythm. For example, things happen in 13s a lot, but I don't count to 13. It's more like feeling the pulse of 123-123-123-123-1.

    I don't officially have a diagnosis because these only started in the summer of 2009. I went to see a doctor then, and he called it 'complex tic syndrome' (well no shit). I haven't been to a doctor since, because he didn't really help, and the tics are mild enough that I usually have pretty good control and people don't notice them.

    Hm, well that was a bit of word-vomit. I've never really met anyone that's had the same sort of tic experiences I have, so thanks for posting owen!
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    Mar 11, 2011 5:48 PM GMT
    My Doctor diagnosed me with OCD about 15 years ago. The diagnosis was ADHD, OCD and Tourette Syndrome.
    How the OCD manifests itself with me are several different but similar actions. The most prevalent for me is the color red. I have owned 5 red cars. Most everything in my kitchen is red. Much of my clothing is red. I am attracted to a man in a red shirt, or hat, or pants....you get the idea.
    With OCD I have to have everything in order...towels in the closet have to be organized with the same colors together. They must all be folded the same way. And lined up straight and even.
    Clothing in my closet and drawers are all organized by color, size and type of clothing, such as shirts all together on one side of the closet and pants on the other side. They must all be put on the hanger the same way. Shirts have the front on the right side of the hanger. No shirt will hang with the front or opening to the left. Socks in drawers are all folded the same. Socks on the right side of the drawer. And I have to use the previously washed socks first, before I use the freshly washed socks. Boxer shorts are folded all the same size, face up and aligned straight and in the same color group.
    Pots and pans are all stacked by shape and size. Cleaning supplies are all together and lined up. I'm sure you get the picture of my life by what I've described.
    When I'm home, I have to be nude. No clothes on at all. Even if I'm cold...still no clothes. Instead, I turn the heat up the winter and turn the A/C up in the summer. Temperature has to be 77 degrees year round.
    I have an obsession about buying Superhero T-shirts. I have about 50 Superhero T-shirts. Another clothing obsession is dress shirts. I own 50 dress shirts.
    I've masturbated everyday since I was 13. Is it a like, or is it an obsession? At 66 years old, I'm finding that my cock will not get as hard, and I can't always cum. Is my masturbation a compulsive obsession? Yes, it is!
    I am in 8 different men's websites. I compulsively look everyday for sex. Am I horny continually? Yes! Am I able to perform with these men coming to my door? No, not always. But I continue to look for sex. Is sex and addiction or a habit or a feel good, or is it OCD?
    Doctor prescribed medication when I was first diagnosed with OCD. But the med was putting me in a state of mind I didn't like. I called it my "I don't care" pill, because that was literally what it was doing to my whole life. I didn't gave a shit about anything. So what if a car was headed straight toward me. I didn't care. I am not exaggerating! So what if I cut myself. I didn't care. No exaggeration here either! You can see why I went off of the medication.
    So what do I do about OCD in my life? I do like the pill was doing to me...I try not to care. If someone messes up the order of my towels, I don't care. If I hang a pair of pants to the left instead of the right, I don't care. If I have a red T-shirt, a dress shirt or a Superhero T-shirt in my shopping cart, I put it back on the shelf, laugh at myself and try not to purchase anything at all. I'm still in the nude, but I try to change the thermostat to 72 degrees. I continue to masturbate. My next car will probably be red. I try not to care.
    All through the previous paragraph you have seen the word "try". I try to control my OCD, but it is difficult. Extremely difficult. I get angry when something is out of order.
    Will, I've bared my soul here. Now you know way to much about me. Look at my profile. You know to much about me. Am I telling you all of my life's story because it is compulsive for me to do so? That is OCD in my life.

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    Mar 11, 2011 11:59 PM GMT
    I have OCD...
    Umm the forms I have
    Well I wash my hands twice, and rinse them 4 times(2 b4 & 2 after)
    I make sure all the lights are off at least twice before I leave my apartment
    All my CD's, Movies, Books(by Author then by Title/Series), are in Alpha-Numerical Order.
    Ummm
    Everything on my desk has a place it needs to be in and when it's moved by someone else who doesn't put it in the exact same place it drives me nuts... though some of my friends do that to me for fun icon_cry.gif
    I always have to be doing something else I start pacing around or tapping (pens, pencils, foot).
    And I never take any food from a persons hand, it's gross I don't know if they have washed them
    Also I never shake hands with people I don't know (not really sure if this & the one above are really OCD ones)
    I always have the urge to smell someone's hair or feel it if it's clean. In fact whenever my own hair is clean I almost can never stop touching it.
    I do things til I eat, sleep & breathe a particular thing, item, or person(like I can tell you everything about them, like WoW I know everything about it from Folklore, Classes, Races etc.)... but only certain things.
    I'll have the urge to hug a total stranger...so it's hard not to give into that lol I don't want people thinking i'm weird icon_lol.gif It's like with the hair I have to control myself not to hug someone I don't know or touch their hair if it looks clean.
    Ah and i'm obessed with the color Purple (i have everything from toys, collectibles, clothes, contacts, my suv, shoes, that's purple) & Neon Green
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    Mar 12, 2011 12:06 AM GMT
    cPt_bOi85 saidSome say I have it as I get very irate when things are not symmetrical or at least packed in a neat manner. For instance: I would be visiting a friends house, and before I realize it, I am busy organizing their kitchen table to be neat and tidy. I don't even know I'm doing it. It is like second nature to me. I think it's a good trait to have.


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    I do this as well
    Though my friends have learned to have me over when their place is dirty icon_mad.gif
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    Mar 12, 2011 1:40 AM GMT
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    Mar 12, 2011 1:46 AM GMT
    I had OCD for years as a teenager and still have some mild form of it. Number 9 was very important to me. I would touch everything 9 times, check everything 9 times, pray 9 times, etc. Also 90º angle was important to me. I needed to have everything perpendicular in an 90º angle. I remember i would wake up in the middle of the night to go check the door lock and stove, and i would touch them 9 times. It sucked all the energy out of me and made me frustrated with my life.
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    Mar 12, 2011 2:34 AM GMT
    I've had OCD ever since I can remember. I had it bad as a child. Repetitive type stuff. It's mostly under control now.


    I've had OCD ever since I can remember. I had it bad as a child. Repetitive type stuff. It's mostly under control now.


    I've had OCD ever since I can remember. I had it bad as a child. Repetitive type stuff. It's mostly under control now.


    I've had OCD ever since I can remember. I had it bad as a child. Repetitive type stuff. It's mostly under control now.


    I've had OCD ever since I can remember. I had it bad as a child. Repetitive type stuff. It's mostly under control now.

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    Mar 12, 2011 2:39 AM GMT
    owenowen2 saidNot a gay topic but do any of you suffer from it or have experience of having to deal with it from others?

    What forms does it take that you experience?



    As a matter of fact I just wrote a blog about that very topic last night!

    http://vselimaj.blogspot.com/

    It's the second one down.

    I experience it daily.
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    Mar 12, 2011 2:48 AM GMT
    I have it.

    I pull the hairs out of my beard, luckily only under my chin though so I can easily hide it by shaving.
    I must have all of my DVDs and video games in alphabetical order, and any downloaded music in itunes has to be all labeled properly.
    My closet is co-ordinated by style and colour.
    My room rarely gets messier than a sweater or coat throw over the back of my chair.
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    Mar 12, 2011 2:52 AM GMT
    Hamburglar saidI have the OCD/Tourettes/trichotillomania combo. It's a total nightmare. icon_sad.gif

    The Tourettes is a blast. And by a blast, I mean excruciatingly humiliating. I have 3 tics. Sometimes I get stuck blinking for a good 30 seconds or so. I just start blinking and then I can't stop. Another one is I jerk my head to the right. Last and most embarrassing is this sniffing noise I make. Try to imagine exhaling through your nose as hard as you can. I get these in what I call attacks. I'll go an hour or two without one and then I'll have bursts of about 20 over the next minute. They vary in frequency and power, though, so sometimes I can try to pass it off as sniffling or laughing to myself. icon_confused.gif

    As for the trichotillomania, I don't even realize I'm doing it. Most of the time I look down and find that my hand is just going at any exposed body hair. Hell, sometimes my hand is going at body hair that /isn't/ exposed. Fortunately, my mind somehow knows better than to shove my hand down my pants when other people are in the room.

    Despite all this, I swear I'm really not a complete freak. I'm being treated for everything and you would never know anything's wrong with me (I hope). icon_razz.gif
    I suppose I have this combo as well.

    My physical tic is jerking my head to the left and my verbal tic is clearing my throat. It's actually really embarrassing when people are like "AHEM" and I'm like "..what?" and they say "You keep clearing your throat." and I just say "Yeah it's my tourettes." and they're like "Oh.." and clearly feel like a dick for calling you out on it.
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    Mar 12, 2011 2:56 AM GMT
    I thought I was OCD once and I went back and checked.

    I thought I was OCD once and I went back and checked.

    I thought I was OCD once and I went back and checked.

    I thought I was OCD once and I went back and checked.

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    Mar 12, 2011 3:01 AM GMT
    The main difference between OCD and OCPD (Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder) is that those with OCD are not aware of their compulsions and will deny having a problem, whereas those with OCPD are aware of them and know they have a problem and generally seek treatment. Thus most who claim they have OCD, actually have OCPD.

    Source: PSY 362 Personality Theory & PSY 368 Abnormal Psychology
    Also, I'm a Senior Psychology major.
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    Mar 12, 2011 3:11 AM GMT
    I can't believe some of you are taking this as joke and poking fun at it. Grow up!
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    Mar 12, 2011 3:22 AM GMT
    Don't be hurt by immaturity, just be thankful you have grown up... It is amazing how many haven't yet. NOTHING can stop us now....
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    Mar 12, 2011 3:41 AM GMT
    gta129 saidI had OCD for years as a teenager and still have some mild form of it. Number 9 was very important to me. I would touch everything 9 times, check everything 9 times, pray 9 times, etc. Also 90º angle was important to me. I needed to have everything perpendicular in an 90º angle. I remember i would wake up in the middle of the night to go check the door lock and stove, and i would touch them 9 times. It sucked all the energy out of me and made me frustrated with my life.

    Ah, I do this too.

    The laundry machines and dryers in my building are all numbered and I can't do laundry unless an even-numbered washer/dryer is available. My lucky numbers are 4 and 8. 2 is acceptable because it's half of 4, and 6 is acceptable only if 2, 4, and 8 are taken.