A message for those uncomfortable with sexual attraction to men....

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    Mar 12, 2011 6:47 PM GMT
    I personally was a man that fell in love with many women growing up but, my secret had cost me businesses and almost my life. Disease comes in so many forms including sexual attraction. I learned it the FUCKING hard way.

    I lost enough souls in this lifetime to realize that God loves me NO MATTER WHAT when I listen. Lust is of our lower nature and it don't matter whether it is with a man or a woman, it is all the same thing. I would lose things because of this deep fear that what I was doing with guys at an early age was wrong. BUT I DID IT FOR LOVE!!!!

    GOD DON'T GIVE A SHIT if the tools we were given were confusing to us. God was on my side even when I walked the streets for 3 damn years with HIV and eventually AIDS before I realized what a loving God he is. I am allowed to attend a Christian church and KNOW I was just as qualified as anyone to find my way back home... Home being a servant, not a slave, of my maker.

    Honestly, if I add up the suicide attempt, my drug addictions, and my diseases, I ran from reality to the point of no return. But, I never had to abuse myself to those extremes to find out God was always on my side. The fucking walks that I had for YEARS living on the streets were no different than the years I was making 80K per year. The imaginary "thing" I would discuss the matters with was just like the father I never had.

    I can surmise there are YOUNGER men suffering with that lack of relationship with God but, what I want to say is for the most part he was there when I least thought he was. Being "gay" or "straight" doesn't make you a sinner either way. But denying what it will take in order to get where you are going is the reason MAN created the idea of SIN to begin with. God KNOWS NO SIN!!!! So give yourselves a break.

    I never thought that as a gay man I would ever find an open relationship with a spiritual authority. I thought, this is just something you cannot discuss. But God knows what you are going to do even before you do it and again, there is no hell for those that simply want to express love for the same sex because it is the only part of the human body that they are willing to sacrifice for love.

    It's YOUR TRUTH that God wants... It is a reference point that he needs in order to guide us to where we belong. And it is never going to happen unless you are honest with yourself about where the starting point in your life is. It is a beautiful thing to know you were never wrong, you were only human. For me, it has lead me to loves towards female's even that I never had the guts to recognize what a magnificent thing love is and how hard I only wanted to protect it. It was also an amazing experience to realize as confused as I was, and the one thing my mother could not give me in this lifetime, is a world of so many brothers that I now am so open to accept without guilt throughout the rest of my life.

    And for this, I am humbly grateful!! This air I breath was truly meant for us... ALL OF US!!!
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    Mar 12, 2011 11:04 PM GMT
    I know this seems like such another marketer with a goal or a movie star with a destiny when I say this but, I don't care who you are or where you are (including the coldness of the streets) If you need my knowledge, I am the one here that is FOREVER indebted to you. I can travel as fast as light to make sure if you are seriously in need of my honest services that I dedicated to GOD, not myself... PLEASE, don't do something that feels wrong yet, doesn't make sense. I have devoted MY LIFE to be the best person in HUMANITY THAT I CAN BE and I feel the backing from so many sources including Christ the son and God the Father. But let me also tell you I am a gifted one, I did my homework. I DON'T GIVE A SHIT WHAT YOUR RELIGION IS MY PROMISE IS THAT I WILL NEVER DISTANCE YOU FROM YOUR FAITH... Why? Because my God had such a clever way to believe in me enough to type this post but even more so, I know he has only allowed me to do such because he believes in you. What do I get out of the deal? The gift of healing SO MANY FUCKING MEN AND WOMAN that I will share oxygen with...
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    Mar 12, 2011 11:43 PM GMT
    If you are uncomfortable with an attraction to men, WHY WOULD YOU BE ON REAL JOCK? God gave us brains and free choice too....sometimes they should be exercised instead of abdicating personal responsibility to some mythical higher power.....just sayin' icon_rolleyes.gif
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    Mar 13, 2011 6:44 PM GMT
    Sporty_g saidIf you are uncomfortable with an attraction to men, WHY WOULD YOU BE ON REAL JOCK? God gave us brains and free choice too....sometimes they should be exercised instead of abdicating personal responsibility to some mythical higher power.....just sayin' icon_rolleyes.gif


    AM I DENYING MY GAYNESS??? God is probably cracking up along with me right now reading your post? Am I NOT allowed to fall in love with a woman and STILL have my gayness? OF COURSE I CAN because women know me from the inside out. What is the message I was trying to suggest? Well maybe you should read it over before tossing it out like you probably did in college so long as you got an "A".... Try it someday.
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    Mar 13, 2011 6:49 PM GMT
    Take your meds.
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    Mar 13, 2011 6:53 PM GMT
    OH, and by the way... I don't worship Jesus Christ... I wholeheartedly believe in MOTHER MARY!!!! She is the true form of mother nature herself and she is ALWAYS on your side.
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    Mar 13, 2011 6:54 PM GMT
    Caslon17000 saidTake your meds.


    Up the dosage of yours prick!!!!
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    Mar 13, 2011 6:59 PM GMT
    OH YEAH, one more thing... Nobody, not even GOD twisted my arm to be the best man that I can be, even at your own fucking weddings....icon_cool.gif
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    Mar 13, 2011 9:15 PM GMT
    yourname2000 said
    Caslon17000 saidTake your meds.

    Actually, after reading your thread(s), upryte, give me your meds. icon_lol.gif

    jk, upryte. I'm really not sure how to take your posts, though...is there a cry for help here? I do hope you're okay.


    A CRY FOR HELP??? No man, a cry for love... so many kids these days are seriously abusing themselves over opinion. If anything, I just want to show you heart and you have one too. I love ALL MY BROTHERS here younger or older, and sometimes I have to bow down to the older and I don't like it much. But, I do know with my strangely discovered relationship with GOD is something I will not sacrifice again to anyone.
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    Mar 14, 2011 12:15 AM GMT
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