CANCER CENTER RATHER THAN THE FUCKING CITY OF HOPE!!!!

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    Mar 14, 2011 7:45 AM GMT
    As a longterm stage three cancer survivor, the City of Hope are just a bunch of Medi-Cal leaches and they don't even help you get it when you need it. Cancer Center's of America are MUCH more civilized and sincere. City of Hope can kiss my ass... Non-Profit scammers.
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    Mar 14, 2011 8:20 AM GMT
    I am having a really bad night... Perhaps I need to take my nightly meds and go to sleep. The chain of events has lead me to become an angry little bitch again and I DO SEE THAT... I don't want to wake up to it again. I am a believer of fate and I know these things will work themselves out... They always do. I have had the passing of a loved one on my mind today and it is really taking it's toll on my actions. I am not so much angry as I am truly sad... Just sad for him, sad for myself and sad for this world that kind of were the ones that took his life... My little bro, GODDAMNIT I really miss him even when I think he is safe and secure and coming back to me someday. I never loved as deeply for anyone outside of my family like I loved him... EVERYTHING... I tried so damn hard and he is suppose to be here playing guitar in my living room like he always did... MAYBE I AM A LITTLE FUCKING PISSED... But will I ever have him back?
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    Mar 14, 2011 8:31 AM GMT
    I PRAY THAT NEXT LIFETIME WE ARE BORN INTO THE SAME FAMILY CAUSE I WOULD PROTECT HIM FOR SURE UNTIL THE END OF THE UNIVERSE!!!!icon_sad.gificon_sad.gificon_sad.gificon_sad.gificon_sad.gif
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    Mar 14, 2011 8:47 AM GMT
    I just took my meds and will be knocked out cold before the hour is over... But, here is a song I wrote for him. I played this to his Mother while I was in the hospital going through my chemotherapy... I WOULD HAVE DONE ANYTHING FOR HIM!!!!

    Breathe

    Maybe Grandfather clock never told the time
    We either hear the pendulum or the nursery rhyme
    You left the world so young, and too satisfied
    Now your child grows to ask why the seagulls cry?

    It's hard to believe and harder to grieve
    There's no place where they fit in
    Wish you could breathe, wish you could breathe
    wish you could breathe again
    You were deceived by the web she weaved
    When you needed a heroin
    Wish you could breathe, wish you could breathe
    wish you could breathe again

    Found you at the bus stop beneath the pouring rain
    Did you know the weather wouldn't always be the same?
    Messages in a bottle sound like notes upon this shore
    The same pirates treasure buried once before

    It's hard to believe and harder to grieve
    There's no place where they fit in
    Wish you could breathe, wish you could breathe
    wish you could breathe again
    You were decieved by the web she weaved
    When you needed a heroin
    Wish you could breathe, wish you could breathe
    wish you could breathe again

    Written in loving memory of Tyeson Collester
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    Mar 14, 2011 8:58 AM GMT
    Thank you so much for that compliment and good-night to you as well brother!