IS IT NATURAL DEATH OR SUICIDE BY ME???

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    Mar 16, 2011 11:04 PM GMT
    I have been really skipping out on my HIV meds.. AGAIN... Why? Because I don't give a FUCK and the same for the rest of the world besides a few people that pray for me.

    You know, I have been watching my counts go up and down for years but, the closer to the end the more severe the impact is of not taking your medication.

    I am SOOOO FUCKING TIRED everyone. This life is really the BIGGEST mistake God ever made and I say that knowing deep down no matter what I do is the Truth.

    I go to a Psych but, the sleep I get is STILL not sufficient enough for me to wake up WHEN THE HELL I really want to.

    It's nice everyone... The gift of life I am being given but, I don't feel the necessity to do things for myself that require me to do what is needed in order to survive.

    Is that suicide or is it just some distant description of a natural death??????? I am not playing. I have already made up in my mind that I ain't playing with this fucking land of Oz and poppy seeds anymore.

    God, I just can't do it. I don't feel I am needed here for anything else and HONEST TO GOD FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY TRUTH, I really am not needed here anymore and nor do I want anything else trying to subject me to feeling wrong...

    I JUST DON'T WANT TO TAKE THE DRUGS ANYMORE... Is that suicide or natural death? I would like to know because I would like to not feel guilty when the skin of this boring life starts falling off of my body. Thank God disease is True because I don't trust anything else anymore.
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    Mar 16, 2011 11:07 PM GMT
    Anytime you do something to intentionally shorten your life, it's suicide.
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    Mar 16, 2011 11:13 PM GMT
    paulflexes saidAnytime you do something to intentionally shorten your life, it's suicide.


    It's not that I don't want to take the meds, it is that I AM SO FUCKING TIRED OF DOING THIS DAY IN AND DAY OUT IN ORDER TO PLAY SOME FUCKING ROLE..

    I want to wake up somewhere FAR from now... I just want my part of eternal sleep because I know there is a heaven SOMEWHERE on this horizon. AND I CANNOT LIVE IT WITHOUT SLEEP!!!
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    Mar 16, 2011 11:24 PM GMT
    UPRYTE said
    paulflexes saidAnytime you do something to intentionally shorten your life, it's suicide.


    It's not that I don't want to take the meds, it is that I AM SO FUCKING TIRED OF DOING THIS DAY IN AND DAY OUT IN ORDER TO PLAY SOME FUCKING ROLE..

    I want to wake up somewhere FAR from now... I just want my part of eternal sleep because I know there is a heaven SOMEWHERE on this horizon. AND I CANNOT LIVE IT WITHOUT SLEEP!!!
    Research the original translation of the word "heaven."
    And don't forget to take your space suit when you go. icon_wink.gif
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    Mar 16, 2011 11:34 PM GMT
    paulflexes said
    UPRYTE said
    paulflexes saidAnytime you do something to intentionally shorten your life, it's suicide.


    It's not that I don't want to take the meds, it is that I AM SO FUCKING TIRED OF DOING THIS DAY IN AND DAY OUT IN ORDER TO PLAY SOME FUCKING ROLE..

    I want to wake up somewhere FAR from now... I just want my part of eternal sleep because I know there is a heaven SOMEWHERE on this horizon. AND I CANNOT LIVE IT WITHOUT SLEEP!!!
    Research the original translation of the word "heaven."
    And don't forget to take your space suit when you go. icon_wink.gif


    That is so physical... Tell me when you ever touch upon the Truth you so ignorantly dictate before you are qualified enough to get there!!!!icon_rolleyes.gif