falling love with the wrong person and idk what to do

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    Mar 18, 2011 4:27 AM GMT
    Everyone haves a story of how they fell in love with someone that you dont even know and when your around that person you get nervous and dont know what to say and your heart keeps beating harder and harder and your scared to make the first move because you dont know if they feel the same way.


    Well thats how i felt when i met my first boyfriend his name was Brandon we were both in high school and we met when i decided to join the wrestling team.
    I would never forget the first day i saw him it was like the world stopped and every one stopped moving in the hall trying to get to there class, we made eye contact and i felt like it was just me and him.
    We both had a girlfriend and we really never saw each other in till wrestling practice, we would always make eye contact but never really talked to each other.
    One day the wrestling coach made us stay after to practice because we both missed a meet that week the coach just told us to wrestle and then he went to his office to make some phone calls or something. When we started wrestling it was so intense and we never gave up a few min later the coach came back and said that we could go and he asked me if i could give him a ride and i did .....It seemed like we were trying to fight the urge to touch each other the whole car ride.

    The next day i broke up with my girlfriend because all i could think about was him and i had so many mixed emotions so i tried to stay away from him during practice. we ended up becoming very good friends and always sleeping over each others house and sleeping in the same bed but we we were always to scared to touch, or kiss each other because we were to nervous and that went on for about 9 months and well one night he stayed over my place and when we were about to go to sleep he told me he had to tell me something, he looked at me and put his hand on mine and kissed me then he stopped and said wow thats better then my ex girlfriend .....and thats when we started dating

    a few months after i started to get annoyed with him we were always fighting and every time i would talk to a girl he always thought i was flirting with her, and he was so immature and crazy so i broke up with him.

    We haven't talked for a while and i started talking to this cool guy who had a lot in common with me and stuff.
    but yesterday i saw brandon (ex) at the mall and well long story short he wanted to hangout today and we did. But when we hong out he acted so different and nice and not like a jackass. He took me to a Chinese restaurant and we were having fun talking about old things and he said he missed me.
    then he said here lets open are forchen cookies and pass each other the forchen with out reading are own. so he ate the cookie and gave me the paper and it said "you will be kissed by someone that loves you" he smiled at me and asked me what did it say and i said .. "it says your going to get a kiss"
    then he looked at me and said oh well i hope its from you

    idk why but i think i fell back in love with him and idk what to do
    because i dont think i could ever be in a relationship with him again but i still get the nervous melting feeling when im around him and no one else gives me that but him

    why do i feel like that around him icon_sad.gif
    i really dont know what to do
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    Mar 18, 2011 4:46 AM GMT

    Well, you could look at this sentence another way.

    "i dont think i could ever be in a relationship with him again but i still get the nervous melting feeling when im around him and no one else gives me that but him"

    Or you could think of it this way in reverse:

    " i still get the nervous melting feeling when im around him and no one else gives me that but him, BUT i dont think i could ever be in a relationship with him again because of..."

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    Mar 18, 2011 3:20 PM GMT
    thanks .. im thinking about it but i just would not know what to say or do