Mar 19, 2011 1:43 AM GMT
So, Ive never posted to one of these b4 so here pops the forum cherry. I have never told this to anyone before, but the other day I unloaded it on a friend here, and It felt so good, I have to let it out again. Ive been married to a beautiful woman for 9yrs. She is my best friend. we have everything in common. Including our liking for guys. She has been totally cool and understanding of it, trusting that this is something I can look at, but never explore. I have been on this site behind her back, and flirting with a couple guys on here and it feels pretty amazing. I don't want to be dishonest, or a cheat. I hate those qualities in others and would never want to become them, but my attractions to men grow stronger every day. I have been working out for a couple months now, and the better looking I get, the more attention I get in real life, and Its making it hard too. What Im saying is that I have "the perfect life" a gorgeous wife, a house, 2 cars, and the whole deal. But what about the other part of me that Im not being honest with. HOw long can one sit on this kinda thing b4 it explodes. I want to explore this part of me, and see how it feels. I dont want to live my whole life thinking what might've been, but dont want to throw away something so amazing that Ive put so much into. Anyone else ever been here??