'Sup man? I'm Navy, and I have been to 3 deployments already, South America, Europe, and Middle East. I understand full well the isolation and the loneliness you feel even when you're in a sea of people. It comes w/ the territory when you hide a part of yourself and lie to people close to you, the ones whom you lay your life on the line to look after. It's very stressful. Add that to our crazy working schedule and very little sleep to keep up w/ operation tempo... yea, I've had fits of blinding rage and severe depressions because I realized all my friends can freely date and talk about their wives and gf back home, where as I could only feign non-interest and avoidance of the subject all together. What got me three deployments was that I had a best friend whom I'd talk to about absolutely everything, and also about absolutely nothing. Try to find someone close to confide in. Just shooting the shits w/ someone who understands you does wonders for your stress.
Here's a link where our gay military brethren, past and present, came together. You're not alone. I'm sure none of these guys would have a problem reaching out to a fellow brother-in-arm.http://www.realjock.com/gayforums/1250526
DADT is going away bro. It's just a matter of time. I'd give it till the end of this year at the latest. Afterward we wouldnt have to worry being discharged based on people's intolerance.
I'll shoot you my SKYPE in a private email later.