bullard said...he tells me that there is nothing he can do im going to die but they cant tell me when just to go home and get my affairs in order...
WHOA... WHOA.. WHOA... No, No, No, absolutely not.
First of all, if it's that serious (after you have a second opinion promptly), you are young enough to be a heart replacement candidate.
Second, I've been told twice in my life I was terminally ill, the first time when I was 32, with less than 2 years to live. I knew the doctor was wrong, as he proved to be, and I was surprisingly unruffled by the whole thing.
The next time I was mid-40s, and I was told I likely had Lou Gehrig's Disease (ALS), an ugly way to die. Well, I'm tougher than tough, and for a few years I did have some moments, since the only real proof is when you develop specific & unmistakable symptoms, as there aren't good definitive tests they can run. So I just had to wait, sweat it out, and see.
Well, here I am. If I had ALS I should have been dead by now. I just soldier on. Nothing scares me anymore.
You get that second opinion, and at 49 you have options. Serious, no doubt, but not necessarily hopeless.
You're gonna do what the guys here are telling you, right? Or else I swear, some RJ guys are gonna come over there and smack your ass, you got that?