Ahhh I feel gross...

  • Aus92

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    Apr 05, 2011 3:34 PM GMT
    I've had the most unhealthy week... Living on 50 bucks a week for university supplies and groceries is getting tough... Considering about 30 to 35 a week goes to uni supplies... Damn graphic design course...

    I've been living on nothing but crap foods lately because decent stuff like good quality fruit and veg is just far too expensive... I have no energy, I'm putting on weight, I have constant stomach ache and I'm just getting altogether fat and lazy... Arghhhh

    Just need to vent because I'm so angry with myself right now for letting this happen... I can't be angry at anyone or anything but myself though... I've just lost all motivation.. I need to push myself more...

    I've also had plenty of moments in the last week when I've thought to myself 'now feels like a good time to come out to someone'. Ive been in the closet now for 7 years and I've never once said the words 'I am gay'. He'll, I can't even come out to one of my gay best friends... What the hell am I afraid of? It's not like he can judge or insult me... Nor would he... I've never even done anything with a guy.. Never kissed, never even held hands with a guy...

    I want to come back in a weeks time or so and re-read this and have a whole new attitude towards everything I've posted here... If I don't... Well that's just depressing on my half...

    Scuse the preachiness, but I'd rather get this off my chest somewhere that I'm anonymous.. I've never actually said anything about my 'feelings' and what not before... I've always just ignored the negative emotions in my life and just suffer in silence...

    Share a vent with me?
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    Apr 05, 2011 3:36 PM GMT
    well, on the bright side of things, you have come out here and you have admitted your gay.

    Instead of beating yourself up, look at this part of your life as a training phase to get you to the next rung in the ladder....

    processing in life takes time...it took me 57 years to come to terms with my sexuality......................be happy..............Keithicon_wink.gif
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    Apr 05, 2011 3:43 PM GMT
    I feel your frustration with regards to the coming out thing. I have accepted the fact that I will not tell anyone EVER in my life, despite the suffering that will come along with it. I don't recommend this to everyone, it needs to fit your situation. I can't advice you here really! But when it comes to budget shopping:

    I personally discovered markets! They are amazing! You can find all the food you need for so much less, especially if you are organised and know what you need. Just go towards the end of a market day when they're almost cleaning up and get all the fruit and veggies you need for 5 dollars or so. I am not sure if you can drink tap water in the US, but if you can why waist money on other drinks? If you wanna flavour it use some lemon or cucumber. Eggs are generally cheap, tuna as well, it's not gonna be five star meals every day but just spend some time on organising your shopping. Hope your situation gets better soon!
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    Apr 05, 2011 8:37 PM GMT
    this IS college life man!, hang in there ;)
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    Apr 05, 2011 11:21 PM GMT
    I had the same problem at first when I was in college; I survived on noodles, pasta with ketchup, and fast food like pizza and McDonald's. Crap basically. Fortunately I had a vegetarian friend (also student) who gave me some useful advice, like:

    - Buy dry lentils and beans in bulk. Takes a bit more time and effort to prepare but is way cheaper than meat and still an excellent source of protein.

    - It's perfectly possible to get fresh produce even if you're lacking funds, just pick the cheaper stuff like carrots and other root vegetables and things that are in season. Same thing with fruit.

    - Build a spice collection. You don't have to get everything at once but spices can change a meal a lot so even though the basic ingredients are the same, it will still taste different.

    And there's also cheaper cuts of beef and pork that tastes just as good, they just take a bit more time to get there.
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    Apr 05, 2011 11:24 PM GMT
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    I dunno I just read the thread titled and turned it on. Figured it'd fix whatever it was about.
  • Aus92

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    Apr 06, 2011 12:25 PM GMT
    UPDATE:

    Just to add to the money drama going on... I had two friends come over for dinner...

    One friends says they will do the cooking while Im finalising my assignment for uni... Obviously doesnt know that you dont put hot burnt oil under a tap... WHOOSH! apartment is full of smoke, alarms go off, the silencer in my room turns out to be broken, whole building gets evacuated, 4 fire trucks pull up and do their safety checks, find out theres no fire and leave me with a 600 dollar fine...

    There goes a whole months worth of groceries...

    Lifes great.
  • HndsmKansan

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    Apr 06, 2011 12:37 PM GMT
    Well look on the bright side..... you got some exercise during the drama...
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  • Aus92

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    Apr 06, 2011 12:39 PM GMT
    HndsmKansan saidWell look on the bright side..... you got some exercise during the drama...
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    icon_lol.gif thank god for optimism xD
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    Apr 06, 2011 12:41 PM GMT
    Sexylurv saidUPDATE:

    Just to add to the money drama going on... I had two friends come over for dinner...

    One friends says they will do the cooking while Im finalising my assignment for uni... Obviously doesnt know that you dont put hot burnt oil under a tap... WHOOSH! apartment is full of smoke, alarms go off, the silencer in my room turns out to be broken, whole building gets evacuated, 4 fire trucks pull up and do their safety checks, find out theres no fire and leave me with a 600 dollar fine...

    There goes a whole months worth of groceries...

    Lifes great.

    geezzzz i thought my life was bad because i had a speeding ticket
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    Apr 06, 2011 12:46 PM GMT
    Jesus christ man I am experiencing a very similar thing right now. I kid you not, last week I was so hungry and had nothing to eat I ate flowers.... FLOWERS dude.... i swear I am not fucking joking.

    Go to the nearest supermarket and ONLY buy the supermarket brand products.

    Get yourself some cans of baked beans, loaded with nutrients and already saucy and yummy - but also some bread to go with it.

    Bananas are good enough as a stand alone fruit.

    Spinach will give you iron, you dont even need to cook it, and if you are so desperate, eat it on its own and make a tale of it in the future, haha... "hi - i ate leaves because I had nothing to eat".

    Eggs will give you the fat and protein you need, and you dont even need to cook them either man, just drink them.

    Oh and have some milk too, not cheese, just milk, that will give you the calcium you need.

    Otherwise, maybe just add to this some tomatoes, canned tuna, and dont forget to drink a huge glass of water before you eat so that you feel more full icon_smile.gif

    And if you have anything left over, buy yourself some multivitamins!
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    Apr 06, 2011 1:05 PM GMT
    Sexylurv said...and leave me with a 600 dollar fine...

    There goes a whole months worth of groceries...

    Will your friend who made the cooking mistake assume some of the cost of the fine with you? I think he should.

    Reminds me of a time when my BF drove me to a drag show (I was running follow spotlight and he was video taping it), and he parked in a handicapped spot. I always kept one of my 2 blue handicapped placards in his car, that are hung from the inside rearview mirror when you're parked, and he normally stowed it in his driver's door pocket.

    Well, we both forgot to check that it was put up. When we went back outside near midnight we found the car gone, just an empty space there. One of the managers confirmed they had called for towing after another customer complained. (I was pretty sure I knew who, a grossly overweight guy whose only disability appeared to be that he was over 400 pounds and as a result could barely walk)

    A friend gave us a ride back to my BF's place, and he had to wait until the next day to retrieve his car from the impoundment lot, paying the towing & storage fee. Fortunately the police weren't involved and there was no fine.

    Well, I felt partly responsible for forgetting to double-check that my tag was displayed, even if it was my BF's task to do it, since he preferred to store it in his own door. So I gave him half the costs, of close to $200 USD total.

    And so I think your friend should kick-in for at least some part of the fine that his action caused. Actually, if it were me in your friend's shoes, I would pay the entire amount, since you appear to have been blameless, a mistake that merely happened in your kitchen due to his ignorance or carelessness.
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    Apr 06, 2011 6:37 PM GMT
    Somerandom saidJesus christ man I am experiencing a very similar thing right now. I kid you not, last week I was so hungry and had nothing to eat I ate flowers.... FLOWERS dude.... i swear I am not fucking joking.


    Haha, i've done the same thing. Back in the day when i was experimenting with flowers (as one does), I ate a rose - apparently their edible and deliecious with nutella, so if you enjoy eating scented flowers then that's the way to go.icon_cool.gif

    I've also smoked lemon leaves - I don't know why, I don't even smoke. But if YOU smoke then it's an affordable, sweet smelling alternative, lol.
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    Apr 06, 2011 7:12 PM GMT
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    And so I think your friend should kick-in for at least some part of the fine that his action caused. Actually, if it were me in your friend's shoes, I would pay the entire amount, since you appear to have been blameless, a mistake that merely happened in your kitchen due to his ignorance or carelessness.


    What he saidicon_exclaim.gif
  • neosyllogy

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    Apr 06, 2011 7:24 PM GMT
    Dumpster diving and CostCo are your friends - if you want some variety.

    You can definitely live cheaply on a very limited budget. (I'm ridic cheap.)
    Protein supplements are also a really cheap way to get nutrition (people who talk about protein being expensive aren't doing the calorie to cost calculations / are idiots).
    The addition of some whey and/or casein protein to super cheap carbs or fats can give you a reasonably healthy diet on the super cheap. (DPSnutrition.com is the cheapest place to buy protien that I've found, I buy from them in bulk to cut costs - Optimum Nutrition is a great brand, reputable and reasonably priced)

    Raman + peanut butter + powdered protein = healthy student diet (healthy for a student diet, that is icon_smile.gif)
    Mix it up with potatoes, free sugar packets you nab from starbucks or something (can get free milk there too, just bring a cup, and go fill up on skim milk - hey, being a student is tough!).
    Just gotta be determined and a little clever.

    Also, regardless of the quality of what you're eating you shouldn't be gaining weight because you don't have money. You need to account for the calories you're eating. Building muscle and being healthy can be tough on the cheap, but gaining weight just comes from not paying attention to what you're eating. Gotta count those calories. (Yeah, it's more work, than just stuffing yourself on steamed broccoli: tough luck, you're poor, gotta do what you gotta do ;) )

    [One more thing: multivitamins are cheap and a must if you're eating on the cheap; really everyone should take one to be safe.]
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    Apr 06, 2011 7:48 PM GMT
    I'm in a similar boat. Today I loaded up on potatoes, carrots and bananas because they were the cheapest produce options, and I've been rationing some cannellini beans.

    Some advice on the coming out part: It could be like throwing a can of unknown liquid on the fire - could be gas or water.

    I came out to my parents at a very stressful time in my life because I thought it would ease my anxiety and allow me to fully pursue a relationship I had been stalling. BAM! Simply put, my whole world exploded and I basically had to check out of my life for a year to recover. I would advise you to make sure you're in a good place to withstand the aftermath if your parents should react negatively, and it doesn't sound like you've got much to comfort you.

    Coming out to friends, however, was a great move in my experience. The year between coming out to friends and family was the best time of my life.
  • Sk8Tex

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    Apr 06, 2011 8:12 PM GMT
    When I was in college we lived off of this:
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    thank god that was just a temporary setting
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    Apr 07, 2011 4:56 PM GMT
    If it doesn't gross you out , you should give a try to animal organs .
    Beef: heart , liver , tripes
    Lamb: kidneys
    Pig: feets , and pig belly

    they are cheap to buy , very nutritive and delicious .... Growing up in the morthern Queensland , i ate plenty of it and still do now
    You can find plenty of recipes thru cooking sites
    Bon Appetit .....
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    Apr 07, 2011 5:01 PM GMT
    you could grow your own vegetables...tomatoes are easy
  • mke_bt

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    Apr 07, 2011 9:14 PM GMT

    In college I lived on oatmeal and chicken thighs (not together).
    A big box of quick oats is super cheap and super filling. Chicken thighs are a great source of protein and very inexpensive. Also, incredibly versatile. Frozen veggies are also a good bargain and are often on sale.

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    Apr 07, 2011 9:18 PM GMT
    Somerandom saidJesus christ man I am experiencing a very similar thing right now. I kid you not, last week I was so hungry and had nothing to eat I ate flowers.... FLOWERS dude.... i swear I am not fucking joking.

    Go to the nearest supermarket and ONLY buy the supermarket brand products.

    Get yourself some cans of baked beans, loaded with nutrients and already saucy and yummy - but also some bread to go with it.

    Bananas are good enough as a stand alone fruit.

    Spinach will give you iron, you dont even need to cook it, and if you are so desperate, eat it on its own and make a tale of it in the future, haha... "hi - i ate leaves because I had nothing to eat".

    Eggs will give you the fat and protein you need, and you dont even need to cook them either man, just drink them.

    Oh and have some milk too, not cheese, just milk, that will give you the calcium you need.

    Otherwise, maybe just add to this some tomatoes, canned tuna, and dont forget to drink a huge glass of water before you eat so that you feel more full icon_smile.gif

    And if you have anything left over, buy yourself some multivitamins!

    hahaha so thats why my garden keeps looking so bare!!!!
    touch my roses and its ON!! icon_smile.gif
  • eddieross69

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    Apr 07, 2011 9:27 PM GMT
    In college I lived on Kraft Mac & Cheese, hot dogs, and Top Ramen.