Hey, I'm back and 'somewhat' well rested. I ended up falling asleep to the lure of the sunlight shining faintly through the curtains, my unit faces east LOL.
This isn't the first time I've stayed up that early, but generally it'd only happen if I was occupied: going out with friends, driving, etc. It was very odd to have stayed up that late being home alone.
I think I'm just bored with my life! Work has been slow and I work from home. I made a lot of money last month but I had to do some major body work on my car, and then after that I had to put away for rent.
Prior to that, I was doing house and clothes shopping during the evenings which would make me tired...I mean even going to the gym doesn't really tire me out that much anymore. But I really haven't been making that much money right now to do the shopping that I really want to get back to doing.
And yes, the sloppy seconds is occupying my mind a lot. It just feels like I'm not ever being taken seriously and because of my looks that guys just see me as the fun guy and never want to go beyond that. And then on top of that I'm not even that much attracted to them to begin with so it's fair game the way I see it.
So basically I feel lonely, bored, isolated...the other night I had something CRAZY run thru my head...that being move back to Dallas and be closer to my family. But I know the moment I do that I'll regret it...I never like to go backwards in life. I'll move to a city I never been to than to go back to a place I left.