May 07, 2011 8:34 AM GMT
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Fit4FitnDenver said...and I didn't think it'd come to this. Maybe it'll wear off by daybreak. But I'm just going to say everything that's on my mind, spill it out offense or no-offense. To recap, I been in Denver since September, then left in October back to Florida (home) and then came back to Denver in January.
But I'm at the point where I'm just wondering, what the FUCK am I doing here? This place has nothing in common with what I like. The gay music scene here sucks. All they play is the same old bitch music by Lady Gaga and some other 14 year old girl music that I don't even know, nor know how to dance to.
And then on top of that, I feel so outcast as a Black person in the gay scene here. Tonight, I had 2 guys fucking come up to me and say, "you're hot, I love brothas". Why can't I just be hot? And they were both absolutely not my type. Every week it's the same old shit. And I had to think, is this all I can get? Is this the best that can come of this? It's like, I know I'm fine I know I look good and I go with a smile and easy going attitude yet the people I want still don't approach me. It's always some old ass dude and it makes me feel so bad inside...And truth be told I reeeally don't find the Black guys out here to be much of my type. Shocking, I know but just speaking the truth. I mean serious, jerry curls? That went out in the 80s. Why the fuck is every other Black dude in the club wearing one? And why the FUCK have I yet to see but 1 gay Black dude in this fucking city who actually has atleast somewhat of an athletic body? I'm tired of going to the gym day in and day out being the only god damned gay Black guy in there!
Maybe the fucking elevation out here has people fucked up!
I just don't feel I can fit in here. Everything here is mountain bikes and skiing, and Subaru. I swear if I see 1 more fucking Subaru... I mean, I love the fact that it's near the mountains but that's the only thing I really like about it. Well, I lie...the fact that I can make a decent living out here. But hell, I go numerous other places and probably make even better living than out here. That's not enough to keep me here
So, I'm out at the bar today and I just thought to myself, at the end of July when my lease is up I'm just going to pack everything up and leave. I'm half-happy out here. I can't find a decent barbershop, the clubs suck, my neighborhood sucks and there's barely any gay people out here, the gym's suck too because everybody just keeps to themselves and makes no effort to speak to anyone. I've reached out to my neighbors, I've attempted to chat with people here and there, I've looked at meetup.com but everything has failed to establish a connection.
I really don't know what to do. I just cannot see myself living here. I don't see a future here. To me staying here means forgetting about a fashionable wardrobe, forget about finding someone attractive who I'm also attracted to, and pretty much just be here. Mediocre, Mundane here.
This seems like a place where the only people who'd really be happy are White-bread people stuck in the 80s, outdoor and mainstream way of living. There's never anything exciting here. Bars close at 2 am, you can't buy wine at the grocery store....it's just so lame out here. I was never on the computer at 2:30 am on a Friday night typing about how much I hate a place when I was living in Miami
I just need to know where the fuck I need to go. I got 3 months to figure it out. I was thinking of visiting Toronto in July but I may need to save that money to find a new place to live...which just might be it
Fit4FitnDenverIt's like, I know I'm fine I know I look good and I go with a smile and easy going attitude yet the people I want still don't approach me.
Fit4FitnDenver said...what the FUCK am I doing here? This place has nothing in common with what I like.
I'm gonna say this with the most tact I can, so no offense to you dude-
but all you do is bitch. The majority of the threads you start on here are all bitching and moaning about something you DON'T like. Maybe you should focus on the stuff you DO like and then stuff will fall into place. Denver is never going to be Miami but it doesn't mean Denver can't be fun. It sounds like you're setting yourself up to fail when you can't change the fact that you're in Denver. Best of luck!
CuriousJockAZ saidI grew up in Colorado, though not in Denver, but Denver is an extremely diverse city
Hmmm. Have you tried chatting to the men you do fancy? Why are you waiting for them to approach you?
Guy101 saidI've been to Denver and I didn't have any issues there just like I don't any issues anywhere I visit
Mixleanmachine saidthe real question however is when you do move are you going to be changing your screen name?
roadbikeRob saidThat is one disadvantage with many interior cities, they are not all that tolerant of diversity. Denver is a beautiful, clean, modern city but it lacks the diversity and excitement of an older Eastern city or a California city. Some of you younger guys put too much emphasis on clubs and overlook the rest of the city. That is very unfortunate.
White4DarkerFL saidIt sounds like you're in the 6 month doldrums. The newness has worn off, but you don't have any roots there.
Oh, and the lack of fit black men in Denver is a myth. I've met two great one's on my vaca's.
roadbikeRob saidBe thankful that you are living in a growing, prosperous central city like Denver and not in crime infested, deteriorating, dying urban basketcases like Detroit, Cleveland, and Buffalo.