weird stuff i just have to share with somebody

  • joselitoo

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    May 15, 2011 11:15 PM GMT
    ok so my feelings for my bf are always changing everyday...

    one day i love him so much i want to be with him all the time
    the other day i hate him and want to break up
    the other day i dont care about him and dont think about him
    and sometimes i'm concerning about him, where he is, how is he feeling etc

    we're now in a relationship for nearly 4 years and we are both very young.
    I'm 18 and he's 19

    but most of the time i feel bad... its a so paradox feeling

    but the more i feel bad, i even want to be a better boyfriend and trying to get
    all of his attention and i want him to see that i still care for him

    i love him so much that it makes me feel bad but love should be a nice feeling...

    i dont know why i have this huge issue but all i know i have this for a couple of months and i never thought this could happen to me

    some months ago i thought he doesnt love me anymore but he always tells me everyday, he always call me every on my phone even if he just want to know what i'm doing, he always try to protect me when someone is making jokes about me and he always care about me like he should

    but i dont know whats the problem

    this is so weird

    it is like that our lovedont fulfill me its like i sold my soul to the devil or sumthing like that

    i also feel like i'm not good enough for him
    he deserved something better than me

    i feel like i destroyed his future bcoz before we had a relationship and were both in the closet he told me he wanted a family with kids and get married
    (this is the tradition of turkish family culture)

    i always put critism on his action for no reason i get mad on him for no reason but he accepts all

    this is fucking up my mind and i dont know what to do

    i know i'm crazy but i'm crazy in love
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    Oct 11, 2011 4:09 AM GMT
    Sounds like a personal problem that you should talk out. Maybe you aren't mentally prepared to be in a relationship and doubt yourself too much...Sounds like a common problem though.
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    Oct 11, 2011 5:20 AM GMT
    You guys are pretty young and I would gather that its hormones that playing up the mood swings the both of you are feeling.

    Talk it out.
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    Oct 11, 2011 5:21 AM GMT
    The @OP doesn't even log in anymore, guys.