Should I feel as mortified as I do?

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    May 24, 2011 3:04 AM GMT
    I hang out with a bunch of friends half my age. There is one guy who is really cute, who I am sure is transitioning to gay. Last summer, at party, we blew each other. As far as I know, thats all he has ever done. No one knows we did anything but the "group" is convinced he is gay and that he has a crush on me because he talks about me a lot.

    Anyway, I keep hearing that he talks about me a lot, but he and I dont speak really. We just see each other socially. So last night the group was going to a party and asked me to meet them. They were all trashed as 20 somethings do, and I was sober. He was drunk as hell. The whole night he kept putting his arms around me, I would put mind around him. Go under his pants and grab some cheek, etc. Even when we left, he grabbed me in the elevator, pulled me close and kept his hands around my waist. When we left he kissed me on the cheek.

    I get a call from the car on their way home with this girl telling me how he was saying "how hot I was and how ripped I am getting". If you look at my pics you can see the "ripped" comment was more the booze talking. lol.

    So I get a text a few minutes later that says "wwwaaaannnttt you so bad". I respond with "I want you too. It was all I could do to not push you up against the wall and make out with you. When you took your shirt off I thought you were so fucking hot and feeling your ass made me rock hard".

    He wrote back "I want you to fuck me so bad. I want you as my first". I wrote back "I would love it. Anytime you want"

    I then realized one of the drunk assholes has his phone and its not him. I have no idea if they deleted what I texted (probably not) but if they didnt, I havent heard from him saying "that wasnt me by the way".

    I feel really embarrassed that I texted that to someone other than him or that he might of read it. Am I just being an idiot since he obviously likes me? I just feel weird. God, its like fucking high school shit. lolamirite?
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    May 24, 2011 3:23 AM GMT
    I can't say I would expect any different behaviour, but I don't necessarily see anything wrong with any of this other than you pretty much outed him in the texts. I say that because you said the people you and he hang with are convinced he is, but don't know. well, I suppose they do now and if they didn't know about you before, they do now.

    Should you be mortified? Probably not, but if I were in your shoes, I would get at him and see if there is any fall out from it. Seems to me, there should be a conversation about the feelings, which are the basis for those texts and if not, then to make sure the friendship hasn't suffered because of the alcoholic episode.