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    May 25, 2011 4:52 PM GMT
    Well its been a great ride. I have made some new friends, reconnected with someone, and learned a lot about myself here. I am facing a pretty big crisis in my life right now, and am breaking under the pressure. I broke under the pressure of living a double life. People just arent meant to have two completely seperate identities. I am now in the process of figuring out which one is more important to me being alive and true to myself. If I want to keep my marriage I am being asked to delete my profile here. This is a hard decision, but this is all very new to me. Im not sure if this post will even show after I am gone, but I just wanted to let you know what a great bunch of guys you all are, and how incredibly comfortable you all made me feel here. Life is a journey and perhaps we will meet again someday.
    Thank you,
    Matt
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    May 25, 2011 4:56 PM GMT
    lvsmscle80 saidWell its been a great ride. I have made some new friends, reconnected with someone, and learned a lot about myself here. I am facing a pretty big crisis in my life right now, and am breaking under the pressure. I broke under the pressure of living a double life. People just arent meant to have two completely seperate identities. I am now in the process of figuring out which one is more important to me being alive and true to myself. If I want to keep my marriage I am being asked to delete my profile here. This is a hard decision, but this is all very new to me. Im not sure if this post will even show after I am gone, but I just wanted to let you know what a great bunch of guys you all are, and how incredibly comfortable you all made me feel here. Life is a journey and perhaps we will meet again someday.
    Thank you,
    Matt


    My best to you man. There are bumps in the road and always remember "this too shall pass," and that everything happens for a reason. Do what you need to, and know that everyone wishes you nothing but good things for your life. icon_smile.gif
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    May 25, 2011 4:58 PM GMT
    Sorry to hear you are departing RJ, especially at such a difficult time.
    Many here are certainly open to supporting you and know that there are guys here that are very open minded.

    The most important thing is your happiness and living a long and successful life. If you decide to leave and you later want to return, please do so.

    Whatever you opt to do, think carefully. Best wishes!
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    May 25, 2011 5:19 PM GMT
    awwww see this is EXACTLY the shit im talkin about. Ima miss this 4 sure. HUGZ
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    May 25, 2011 5:45 PM GMT
    Matt, yes, be true to yourself. I think its most important to go for what brings you happiness.

    I found what makes me happy is to pay attention to the little voice inside me. I find happiness comes when I stop and ask myself, "What do I really want?" If I want something, I will move mountains to get there.

    Good luck to you, and come back anytime. I've found there are a great bunch of guys on this site.
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    May 25, 2011 5:47 PM GMT
    i don't know you but best of luck and don't worry leaving rj is good lol its not the same anymore
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    May 25, 2011 5:48 PM GMT
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    May 25, 2011 5:49 PM GMT
    Anduru saidglitteryourway-4a82e6fa.gif


    lmfao
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    May 25, 2011 5:57 PM GMT
    I has a sad. icon_sad.gif

    It's totally understandable that you'd want to keep your marriage, but I can assure you that your feelings for men won't go away. Actually, the lack of interaction with men will eventually build up to yet another breaking point, at which time you'll be faced with another decision.

    Whichever path you choose, I do hope you can find a way to be happy.
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    May 25, 2011 6:09 PM GMT
    i don't understand that wife.

    if she's willing to live with a bi man , RJ offers the perfect vicarious gay interaction , so she should feel safe .

    watch her freak out when he goes hiking with a" buddy" of his ;)
    anyway, all the best.
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    May 25, 2011 6:12 PM GMT
    wait the fuck up

    married to a women ewww

    i dont believe in bi guys either u like pussy or cock

    i think thats disgusting that you sleep with her and probably one day cheat on her with a guy if not done yet hah
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    May 25, 2011 7:26 PM GMT
    Why don't you consider just hiding your profile instead of deleting it, if that would be an acceptable alternative?
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    May 25, 2011 8:01 PM GMT
    The best of luck.

    That said, it makes sense that your wife might not want you to put yourself in tempting situations while you're seeing if you can work things out. But a request that you not talk to other gay men at all (which is really what most of the RJ forums are about) is controlling and, IMO, completely out of bounds.

    Please talk to a good individual or couples counselor.

    Hugs.