I will share my testosterone story.
Chapter 1, I lost my left testicle to acute scrotal avulsion (read having it ripped off of my body mechanically) in an automobile accident when I was 15 years old.
Chapter 2, The treatment I received as the dependent of a retired military officer, was good for the trauma and non-existent for the management of hormonal (or any other consequences).
Chapter 3. This f--ked me up emotionally and hormonally. I didn't even talk about until I was twenty, was convinced I was a monster and no one would ever look at me, and so on. I eventually got into therapy and the therapist got me to an endocrinologist.
Chapter 4, They diagnosed hypogonadism and put me on testosterone supplements (injections of testosterone cypionate).
Chapter 5, That worked, my weight normalized, I had good energy, and I started going to the gym.
Chapter 6, I am American, and Texan so I thought if a little is good then a lot is better.
Chapter 7, I never took a "lot" by the standards of bodybuilding but for my body it was probably too much.
Chapter 8, moved to Europe and the docs said, "we don't supplement testosterone period, it is against the law".
Chapter 9, cold turkey, weight soars from 85kg to 130kg in about 2 years.
Chapter 10, scrotal abscess (ironic huh) nearly kills me (maybe within minutes of sepcis) and the resulting bloodwork shows my blood glucose at 330, tryglicerides at 670, and so on.
Chapter 11, F--k, F--k, F--k, F--k, F--k, F--k,
Chapter 12, Radical change of lifestyle, slow work on everything surrounding, still no testosterone (because they still won't do it), but they do put together a thorough medication regime.
Chapter 13, Bloodwork normal again, testosterone low normal (naturally).
Chapter 14, Two years of unbelievable hard work and weight goes from 130kg back to 85 (as it is now).
Chapter 15, I am 44 and have already had all of these problems so I know I have to manage well or die.
We are hormones. When you f--k with your hormones, even under precise medical supervision, the result is unpredictable. This is tantamount to f--king with who we are.
No one had better medical reasons than I did for testosterone augmentation. It still wasn't worth it.