i wanted to look for it in an open country but it came to my office.....

  • kemoze

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    Jun 20, 2011 2:58 AM GMT
    icon_eek.gifi wanted to go to an open country to fall in love without fear, but love came to my office when this guy ( indain ) has been hired in the department next to mine,
    i loved him the first time i looked at his face. till now i am suffering ,
    yeah , i am not out of the closet and he is 29 old , has a son, but i do love him , he is indian and i see him the most attractive guy i have ever seen in my life ( i dont know why lots of pple avoid asians or indians or ..... ) he is really attractive , he has a great personality, i didnt masturebate since i have met him... i just love him , love his talks, smell, everything about him
    but i got only pain,, i texted him as a colleague but were only simple messages,
    i dont know what to do ... i love him , i wish at least to be friends ,, i dont care about sex..,, i just wanna be close...
    and more , i started to change myself.. for example i like having fun all the time even at my office i like to share talks and laugh with my colleagues in the accounting department ,,, but now i started to be more stricket at work, maybe cuz of the love i feel , or i feel like its a bad habit and i wanna change it.. i love him .,, guys , i cant forget him .. guys he is working with me ,, means i have to meet and talk to him everyday,,, guys is it possible to be at least friends .. and we have an age difference of 7 years,, lol
    so, if i wanna it to work out what should i do ,,,???
    does love change you guys.....
    if you are in a situation like this ( love from one side only ) what would you do ??
    but as you know this is out of control,, who controls his heart , no body,
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    Jun 20, 2011 3:03 AM GMT
    I've been in similar situations (was just in one, actually, a few months ago) and I've gotta say, unless you're different from me that way, it's gonna tear you apart inside. The relationship you form with him will only be toxic and it will continue to eat at you all the time. Even if you don't feel it at first, it'll come crashing down hard some day.

    But! That's just my advice from being in similar situations. Good luck either way. icon_smile.gif
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    Jun 20, 2011 6:33 AM GMT
    Aww. I'm sorry but if he's not gay then he's not going to start now for you. You know how your country treats gay people, telling him you're gay isn't safe and he may get upset.
  • kemoze

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    Jun 20, 2011 5:21 PM GMT
    OneFish saidI've been in similar situations (was just in one, actually, a few months ago) and I've gotta say, unless you're different from me that way, it's gonna tear you apart inside. The relationship you form with him will only be toxic and it will continue to eat at you all the time. Even if you don't feel it at first, it'll come crashing down hard some day.

    But! That's just my advice from being in similar situations. Good luck either way. icon_smile.gif


    ( it's gonna tear you apart inside),
    thats really happening to me now ,i sometimes i feel like i cant breath,( i am suffocatting now while i am writing about him )
    today i saw him , i was going out of my office going to the kitchen to bring something, when i looked at him , he said only hiii ..i feel like i cant talk to him, really , i dont know why ,, before i liked talking to him , but now i cant
    i love him to the extend that i cant talk to him ,...
    i just wanna be a friend , i would do anything he asks me to do ,, i am ready to stay besides him whenever and wherever he goes,
    i just love him , i love his breath, his shirt , his look ,

    anyway,,,,,, i always look for love and love gives me only pain cuz i used to love the ones who dont know i am into them ,

    god saves me ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
  • kemoze

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    Jun 20, 2011 5:36 PM GMT
    adam228 saidAww. I'm sorry but if he's not gay then he's not going to start now for you. You know how your country treats gay people, telling him you're gay isn't safe and he may get upset.

    really i would love to tell you guys that , oneday he drove me home, it was so nice of him to do this , i didnt feel the distance which usually takes about 30 minuets, i hoped at that time the distance to be longer so that i can stay with him much more time.. anyway he drove me ,. same day at night i texted him saying ( thank u for dropping me home it was gentle of you to do this ) then he replayed saying ( no problem at all buddy .. your most welcome anytime )
    anyway . i texted him saying ( hay do you think you cant make real friends here in kuwait .. or just you dont think about it ) i asked him this question cuz one day he told me one time that he had a bad experience before ..
    anyway he replayed saying ( i do have real friends, me and me in a small world of my own) i didnt like the message i replayed saying ( this is weird , you and you only in the small world of your own, you gotta see a therapist )
    then he said ( i do see a therapist , i have been seing you at work )
    anyway the last message i sent was ( take care and oneday i will figure you out ) after this message he never texts me again , maybe i freaked him out by saying this .. i dont know ,, i only love him .,,

    i cant tell him i am gay ,, i like me being gay , the only thing i hate is that pple think that gays wanna suck a cock or .. whatever.. but we gays have feelings i wanna fall in love and love someone who loves me too ,, whats wrong with that ..