Jul 04, 2011 6:25 AM GMT
Okay, so the last few years have been tough for me. I never had a stable home, my mum was an alcoholic, brother had rage issues. Was scared to be myself because of my sexuality and was kind of messed up over this guy who was straight but I was madly in love with. Like my mum, I have "It's never my fault" Syndrome, so it's always something else. I'll always have an excuse for something. I acknowledge that now and I'm working to fix it. However when I was 15 I dropped out of school in year 9, Mum never made me go anyways and the social workers would try come get me but nothing would ever happen. At this time I got a job at Maccas which I'm thankful for, however due to the comfort I had my own money in life I chose work over school, which I never went to anyways. Almost 4 years later and I seriously hate life, I have no money at all. I'm in debt 5 grand, my account is always $50 a week overdrawn, since I've turned 18 I'm now classified too old for Maccas to roster me on too much, so I get around 8 hours a week which I've been living off for the last 7 months. Now I'm trying to turn my life around, I've applied for so many jobs! But only one has even gotten back to me. I look for jobs online and there is literally nothing but 4th year mechanics or stuff I'd need a uni degree for. The problem is I've only got a year 9 pass, not that I even passed. And have done nothing since. And it's affecting me and my partners relationship. As he still needs to take care of me and I owe him lots of dough. I don't know where to turn, I really have no where else to apply. I can't get my license because I have no one to drive me so I have to rely on trains but they don't really run in my area. any help at all?