Suicide because of Sexuality; have you ever attempted or considered it?

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    Jul 09, 2011 5:19 AM GMT
    Lately there have been many stories in the news of Gay teens commiting suicide because of their Sexuality. Have you ever attempted or considered it?When I started coming to my terms with my sexuality at 15 I considered it, also at 18 when I came out to my parents. Until I told myself that suicide is not the answer, things will bet better, I just keep telling myself that every single day.
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    Jul 09, 2011 5:22 AM GMT
    Nope, never thought about it doing it.

    But hearing all these stories in the news about it makes me grateful for the environment I grew up in.
  • nubScotty

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    Jul 09, 2011 5:23 AM GMT
    Yup, at age 18. I had been diagnosed with depression and hypothyroidism(symptoms = depression like, so a double whammy) at age 13, had been on medications since then. Came out at 18, was generally accepted but still had a hard time dealing with it, and attempted suicide.

    Have come a long way since than icon_biggrin.gif

    I'm very unashamed of it and open about it, if that wasn't obvious heh; had a disease and have since recovered from it. It took me a long time to forgive myself for having depression and the effects it had on my life, have since done so and am quite happy!
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    Jul 09, 2011 5:30 AM GMT
    I've considered it several times in my earlier teenage years. I attempted last winter but I really couldn't do it. I only considered suicide when I was really depressed. I hope that never happens again- it's very scary.

    Ever since my attempt from last winter, I always try to remember that life is worth living no matter what. I can still see, hear, taste, speak and think. What else do I need? Everything else that I was worrying about wasn't THAT big of a deal when I put everything into perspective.
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    Jul 09, 2011 5:51 AM GMT
    Only considered it once and I barely consider that a consideration since I thought do i want to die today and was like uh no, but it wasn't over my sexuality I think. I think it was something I was depressed about.
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    Jul 09, 2011 7:54 AM GMT
    navi_saiyan2 saidOnly considered it once and I barely consider that a consideration since I thought do i want to die today and was like uh no, but it wasn't over my sexuality I think. I think it was something I was depressed about.


    Wow, exactly +1.
    But it wasnt because I was gay... my sexuality is hard (no pun intended) but I would never consider killing myself over it.
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    Jul 09, 2011 8:19 AM GMT
    I attempted it when I was 13. it was a combination of being fat, gay, having no friends. Being gay was probably the biggest factor, but being gay AND obese can really mess you up....

    but as fate would have it, it was not a very effective method.

    first I tried cutting my wrists with a knife , but there were no knives around that were sharp enough.

    then I reached for random pills, but it was the vitamin Niacin, and while my attempted overdose did cause extreme and scary pain, burning sensation, sensation like being pricked with knives all over and made me feel like I was going to die (even turning my skin weird colors like blue and green in places), I survived, did not even pass out...I just hid in the bathroom suffering until I felt better hours later and then was fully recovered by the next day... never told anyone, just went on with my life.

    It was during the painful and scary experience that I realized I didn't want to die. so, even though I could now more effectively do it, I don't want to (even though I've thought about it a few times since then). In fact I ended up wanting to live a long life.
  • twostroke

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    Jul 09, 2011 1:40 PM GMT
    Considered but never attemped it. I was around 13-14
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    Jul 09, 2011 1:41 PM GMT
    Never done it
  • wild_sky360

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    Jul 11, 2011 5:30 PM GMT
    I was able to pass for straight, so the day to day horror, some kids endure, wasn't the issue. What got to me was the thought of having to hide like that forever. It wasn't until going away to college that I met open, well adjusted gay people...all three of my flatmates, actually. That serendipity may have saved my life.

    The recent stories in the news break my heart. It makes you wish you could just talk to that kid for 5 minutes and tell him it gets better. See the light at the end of the tunnel..Tough it out. You can make a great life for yourself and never look back at the pain you left behind.

    Then I found this organization that does just that:
    http://www.itgetsbetter.org/pages/about-it-gets-better-project/
    (tears welling)
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    Jul 11, 2011 5:40 PM GMT
    I can honestly say the thought has never crossed my mind. That is not to say I do not sympathise with those who have contemplated it.
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    Jul 11, 2011 5:41 PM GMT
    Growing up I always considered it but there was one time I actually attempted it. My brother and his friends walked in on me and a friend messing around and they blackmailed us all summer long.

    Me and my family moved away that summer but my brother continued to exploit me.
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    Jul 11, 2011 5:49 PM GMT
    Stan904 saidit was a combination of being fat, gay, having no friends. Being gay was probably the biggest factor, but being gay AND obese can really mess you up....


    Same here - and I didn't even know I was gay; I just knew something about me was different from everyone else, which I took to mean something was "wrong".

    Thought about suicide a ton over the years. I didn't figure out what I was for over a decade after high school.Lot of confused and lonely times, and that led to thoughts of ending it.

    One of the best things about seeing the Millennials' acceptance of glbt issues thinking how rare the thought of kids' killing themselves because they're gay will be in 10, 20 years (at least in America, and assuming your parents aren't religious extremists, etc etc).
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    Jul 11, 2011 5:59 PM GMT
    You wonder if the gay teen suicide thing is not promoted by conservative media.
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    Jul 11, 2011 6:22 PM GMT
    Alpha13 saidYou wonder if the gay teen suicide thing is not promoted by conservative media.


    Would you clarify?

    If it makes it to mainstream news, there is an agenda; granted. I was wondering myself what the media angle was this time. I often read a story less for the information than to figure out what point of view I'm being sold.
  • Montague

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    Jul 11, 2011 6:29 PM GMT
    Never, too much to live for.

    There is no such thing as mainstream news, only mainstream entertainment.
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    Jul 11, 2011 6:36 PM GMT
    I considered it as a teenager in high school. Being picked on wasn't fun, even though it was more for being a fat mama's boy rather than being gay (I didn't really come out until my late teens right at the end of high school).

    I've thought about it a few times in the past few years after being treated poorly by other gay men. Struggling to come out of the closet only to find that gay men can be even more cruel than homophobes kinda sucks. So...when does it get better again? =/
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    Jul 11, 2011 6:51 PM GMT
    Suicide is such a dirty word. Why not having the right to die. Life is a choice, some make the choice to die; a human right we should all have.
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    Jul 11, 2011 6:59 PM GMT
    Stan904 saidIbut being gay AND obese can really mess you up....




    Agreed!!! I found it much harder to be fat than gay but the combination was a one two punch.
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    Jul 11, 2011 7:05 PM GMT
    Maybe so, but "choosing to die" because life was too hard makes you a weak person. I'll go even one step further and say and it makes someone a pathetic person.

    Yes, I had someone close to me kill themselves. Yes, I do have anger issues because of it.

    True_blue_aussie saidSuicide is such a dirty word. Why not having the right to die. Life is a choice, some make the choice to die; a human right we should all have.
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    Jul 11, 2011 7:13 PM GMT
    Alpha13 saidYou wonder if the gay teen suicide thing is not promoted by conservative media.


    Excellent point.
    But of course they probably are also too ... uh... 'dense' to see their destructive effect on these teens.
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    Jul 11, 2011 7:17 PM GMT
    Yes, but not because of my sexuality... maybe issues that revolve around it such as losing everything and a lot of people... but not just because I'm a homosexual.
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    Jul 11, 2011 7:21 PM GMT
    Alpha13 saidYou wonder if the gay teen suicide thing is not promoted by conservative media.


    Obviously it is triggered by conservative, religious , and all around intolerant attitudes around homosexuality.
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    Jul 11, 2011 7:23 PM GMT
    BuddyinNYC said
    Alpha13 saidYou wonder if the gay teen suicide thing is not promoted by conservative media.


    Excellent point.
    But of course they probably are also too ... uh... 'dense' to see their destructive effect on these teens.


    OH please for gods sakes. If homosexuality was legal the word over, you would still get teen homosexuals doing themselves in, for many reasions. Just as to this day we have hetrosexual teens committing suicide.

    Some people just want to blame all the misery on conservatives while blindly turning their backs on all the damage the elitist left/progressives have done.
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    Jul 11, 2011 11:02 PM GMT
    Attempted it age 23 while at university.
    It was really a call for attention over a broken affair,
    which nearly backfired because I took double the dose
    that I meant to. Needless to say I wasen't rescued by
    my boyfriend, but by my straight friends.
    The guy came to the infirmary on the 3rd day, walked
    up to my bed,without a word slapped me and walked
    out.
    If my friends haden't been around, I would have
    succeeded in my second attempt, just after he left.
    That was nearly 35 years ago,but it still hurts.