depression?!?!

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    Jul 27, 2011 8:06 PM GMT
    Well.... I have been going through the roughest patch of my life since June.

    Have been lonely most of my life particularly during my adolescent period. Have been treated badly by my peers during my childhood/school days n was HEAVILY tortured during my college days(11th n 12th grades).
    Have the least satisfaction at work.
    Have very few friends.
    Haven't met a gay guy (in person) till date.
    Starting to loose interest in almost everything. miraculously, i somehow prevented myself from committing suicide twice.
    I am starting to loose self-respect and confidence.
    I get angry sometimes for no reason, scream, shout, tend to break things as well.
    All in all, Life has become indescribably dull and insipid.

    How can i overcome this crisis?
    Will it have any consequence in the future?
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    Jul 27, 2011 8:23 PM GMT
    Welcome to growing up!


    Shashank_Rosberg saidWell.... I have been going through the roughest patch of my life since June.

    Have been lonely most of my life particularly during my adolescent period. Have been treated badly by my peers during my childhood/school days n was HEAVILY tortured during my college days(11th n 12th grades).
    Have the least satisfaction at work.
    Have very few friends.
    Haven't met a gay guy (in person) till date.
    Starting to loose interest in almost everything. miraculously, i somehow prevented myself from committing suicide twice.
    I am starting to loose self-respect and confidence.
    I get angry sometimes for no reason, scream, shout, tend to break things as well.
    All in all, Life has become indescribably dull and insipid.

    How can i overcome this crisis?
    Will it have any consequence in the future?
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    Jul 31, 2011 9:11 AM GMT
    I'm sorry to hear what you're going though. Those are some pretty distressing feelings for anyone. I'd have to disagree with ConfederateGhost, what you're describing sounds like a pretty classic case of major depression. That's the bad news, the good news is lots of people go through similar bouts of depression and are able to overcome it. I would highly recommend you speak with a mental health professional. I apologize, I'm not that familiar with the Indian mental health system but there is a clinic which might be a decent place to start.

    http://www.nimhans.kar.nic.in/psychoclinic/psychoclinic.htm

    There is a member of the staff, Sushma Shashidhar, who specializes in mental health needs of gays and lesbians. The best thing to do would be to start on an antidepressant and participate in regular "talk" therapy to help figure out some ways to overcome these feelings and thoughts and develop some habits that will help you move pass this depression.

    Depression does have a very pervasive effect on ones life. Physical health, relationships, work, and social life are all areas that are negatively effected by long-term depression. Fortunately, these potential life-long consequences can be mitigated by dealing with your depression in a timely manner.

    I hope that helps at least a little. Best of lucky to you!
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    Jul 31, 2011 12:59 PM GMT
    Shashank_Rosberg said
    All in all, Life has become indescribably dull and insipid.


    I've recently been feeling like this especially due to my depression. My psychologist/psychiatrist tell me its because of my lack of social life. I have no close friends to talk to about my problems .. so a lot of stuff is bottled up inside me. I didn't have a single gay friend until just 4 months ago. You may be experiencing the same thing; but can't say for sure without really getting to know you. I strongly suggest seeing a psychologist/counselor for evaluation/diagnosis -- you'll probably end up going through "cognitive-behavioral therapy"