In which I ponder approaching surgery

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    Aug 11, 2011 1:12 AM GMT
    (This is going to be a little self-indulgent, but this is teh internet, amirite?)

    I'm nervous/excited/scared and wanted to share, and this seemed to be the place.

    I'm 36 hours out from a full abdominoplasty. Over the last year, I lost about 90 pounds (and that's net, and I know I added muscle along the way, so the fat loss was probably more), and I have what seems like miles of loose skin and rolls.

    I've had a gut through my teenage years and my entire adult life. The mere idea, even the thought, that I will not have that gut, and will wake up Friday afternoon with a (relatively) flat body is hard for me to wrap my head around. This gut has defined my entire life. I can't imagine what it will be like without it. Of course I realize it was far more important/present in my head than to anyone else, but it's still going to be a big deal to me.

    I'm thinking, to sum it up: I am out of excuses. For all these years, I have held myself back from so many things, nearly always (whether or not I admitted it to myself) because I hated how I looked. Dates, learning a sport, doing anything physical with friends (even simple/stupid stuff like ice skating or playing beach volleyball) - I wouldn't let myself do anything. Even losing all this weight didn't change too much about my self-image, because I always had all these massive skin rolls everywhere. With these things gone, with my life's one big "I have to fix this before I do X" finally realized, it's on me to make whatever I want to happen, happen. I'm not sure that I -- no, actually, I know I am not ready for that to be gone. I'm excited - this is a lifelong dream! of course I'm excited! - but I'm also really, really scared.
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    Aug 11, 2011 2:14 AM GMT
    Good luck man, I know a person whos recovering from the same surgery. He's really happy about it too!

  • MarvelClimber

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    Aug 11, 2011 3:59 AM GMT
    Knock, knock!
    "Who's there?"
    Your new life silly!

    You have an opportunity to reinvent yourself. Continue your exercise routine and healthy eating habits and don't look back. Live it up. Make a list of all the things you wanted to try but didn't out of fear/shame/insecurity/whatever and just start knocking them out. Best wishes for a speedy recovery icon_smile.gif
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    Aug 11, 2011 4:36 AM GMT
    yes, its best to do it, I hope its safe!
  • dancedancekj

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    Aug 11, 2011 4:39 AM GMT
    Best wishes. Your story is very inspiring to me, and I am excited for you!!!
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    Aug 11, 2011 4:39 AM GMT
    Woo! I love to hear that. Congrats man! Wish you the best of luck. Try swimming!
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    Aug 11, 2011 5:40 AM GMT
    Best of luck buddy. Based on your pics it doesn't look like you need it...nice photos.
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    Aug 11, 2011 5:47 AM GMT
    HisAlterEgo saidKnock, knock!
    "Who's there?"
    Your new life silly!

    You have an opportunity to reinvent yourself.


    What he said just relax and enjoy your new found life.
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    Aug 11, 2011 5:51 AM GMT
    Congratulations on losing all your excess weight. Now, with your surgery you'll be able to take part in all those activities you wouldn't allow yourself to participate in. Think of all the catching up you have to do. Enjoy your future!

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    Aug 11, 2011 5:54 AM GMT
    Wow--What a great accomplishment---and just think of all the great experiences you WILL have. You have to allow yourself to enjoy it--There's some awful litttle imp out there called "Fear Of Success" that holds many people back.(I even read a book about it) Trust me, I've always had more success with a self-assured, almost "fuck-it" attitude, than by holding back. I don't mean being a cocky pr**ck, but learn to make life good for YOU.
    Good for you!!! best of luck
  • DrewT

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    Aug 11, 2011 5:59 AM GMT
    I'm am glad you've made a positive change in your life, and hope that this will open up avenues for you. Weight loss is especially challenging and you did it. Look in the mirror and accept you. You've done it. icon_smile.gif
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    Aug 11, 2011 7:50 AM GMT
    Someones gonna have a hot beach body next summer!

    I always wondered does insurance pay for this surgery or do you have to pay and it is expensive?
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    Aug 11, 2011 10:32 AM GMT
    keepitclassy21 saidSomeones gonna have a hot beach body next summer!

    I always wondered does insurance pay for this surgery or do you have to pay and it is expensive?


    I am submitting this to insurance, as the weight loss was triggered by an accident last year, but if they don't cover it, I will pick up the cost myself, and it's not cheap as far as I'm concerned - I'm selling stock to cover the cost.
  • Lincsbear

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    Aug 11, 2011 2:59 PM GMT
    Congratulations,torrentprime!
    My sister-in-law is going through the same at the moment,having lost over six stone in the last two years through diet and exercise.She`d lived most of her adult life way too heavy,and now everything has changed for her.She doesn`t quite know what to think or feel or do,but she`s much happier than before.
    Make sure you take up those opportunities you denied yourself before!
    And stick to your exercise programme.For one thing,it`s really enjoyable to get out and work it off!
    Best wishes!
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    Aug 11, 2011 8:40 PM GMT
    Thanks everyone for your thoughts; I appreciate the virtual hand-holding. I'm nervous but glad this is almost here!
  • nubScotty

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    Aug 12, 2011 2:27 AM GMT
    Congrats on the weight-loss! I can totally relate to the way you feel, you lose all this weight and than still have excess skin which is a constant reminder of who you were and body-image issues continue to hold me back from a lot in life.

    Congrats again on the weight-loss and the impending surgery, but as others have said you look awesome as it is!
  • Jerebear

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    Aug 12, 2011 2:33 AM GMT
    Congrats on the weight loss and good luck with your surgery. I hope your recovery is smooth and quick. Your surgery will give you a huge boost of confidence, but allowing yourself to freedom to really live will still need to come from interior changes (though I know how big a deal this exterior change is to you). Grab this oppurtunity and never look back. icon_smile.gif
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    Aug 12, 2011 3:13 AM GMT
    torrentprime said...but I'm also really, really scared.

    Oh my dear! Your first stay in a hospital? Or first time having an operation?

    I've had hospital stays & operations so often I can't count them. The most difficult were traffic accidents, when I awoke from a coma in a hospital bed with amnesia and had no idea why I was even there. Now THAT's traumatic.

    You'll be just fine, this is easy. I usually have a hospital stay every year or 2, just a routine with me. I don't necessarily like them, but one of my personal mottos is to "Thrive where I'm planted."

    So I treat it like a vacation, and an adventure. They take good care of you, serve you food in bed, tend to all your needs. You will be so spoiled! Relax & enjoy -- you're gonna be there anyway.

    But be sure to smile, be complimentary, make those nurses and aides your friends. They'll treat you like royalty if you show them respect, joke with them, know their names, treat them like friends. They always sneak me little after-hours treats from their own break room, always linger by my bedside to just visit & chat.

    As for the procedure, just assume it's gonna go fine. I presume you pre-selected a good doctor. That I can't address. You're gonna be OK. Tell us your success story afterwards, 'K? icon_biggrin.gif
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    Aug 12, 2011 2:45 PM GMT
    Thanks Art. Cya on the other side!
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    Aug 13, 2011 2:14 AM GMT
    In case anyone is still reading this, I am out and alive. lol I'll post something new once I'm more awake.

    Thanks again for the support, everyone.
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    Aug 13, 2011 2:17 AM GMT
    You made it! How do you feel? Who is taking care of you.
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    Aug 13, 2011 3:14 AM GMT
    YAY
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    Aug 13, 2011 3:33 PM GMT
    keepitclassy21 saidYou made it! How do you feel? Who is taking care of you.


    My roommate brought me home, but I'm pretty much taking care of myself. Some of my friends (with military / medical training) are going to help me with my bandages later though - I have some Steri-strips and then some gauze; it hurts to mess with it and I don't know what to replace and what not to, plus I can barely see it. icon_smile.gif

    I feel fine, actually! I can feel how touchy/fragile the incision line is, so even though I feel great, I know I have to be super cautious with it. They told me to walk a little hunched over it for awhile, which hurts my back and looks ridiculous, but whatever. icon_confused.gif


    All in all, I came through great, and I am already bored and ready to go run a marathon - well, start training for one. icon_wink.gif
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    Aug 14, 2011 7:47 AM GMT
    Glad to see the surgery went well... Do you mind if I ask what type of abdominoplasty they performed on you? I'm mainly curious about the type of scars it's going to leave...
  • MikemikeMike

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    Aug 14, 2011 7:59 AM GMT
    Glad it went well!! A guy at my gym went from a size 45 waist to a 32 and he had ripped abs under his loose skin. Normally I wouldn't tell someone to have surgery for cosmetic reasons but he is 24 and he did alot of research on the Dr. before surgery. He is 27 now and he still looks great.

    Happy recovery- Now go get em!!