Confused, and frustrated with myself

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    Aug 11, 2011 3:00 PM GMT
    Hey guys, Im new here so please go easy on me. I just turned 29. I have not been actively gay in almost 10 years. However I used hook up with a guy, FWB kinda thing. I have been with girls my whole life, except for that one guy. I have a few gay friends that I really like but would never hook up with them.

    I like girls, but when I see a big dick I wanna suck it, even though I never have sucked a dick, I have just been a bottom before. I really would like to try sucking cock, it turns me on seeing a big dick.

    I cant figure out if im gay or straight or bi or what. I fantasize about getting fucked and sucking cock but I go hook up with women and love it. I just hooked up with a beautiful black girl last night that gave some mean head.
    But this morning I'm horny and cannot get ahold of her so now I'm thinking about dick. I have two FWB with beautiful hot chicks and I love eating pussy, but as soon as I'm horny and they are not around, I think about dick. And I usually go look at cock pics and jack off to keep myself from going and hooking up with random guys.

    I bought an aneros to try and start giving myself some anal pleasure but my ass is so tight, I cant get it in. I dont know what to do. Im frustrated and confused. Maybe I should find a girl that will strap on a dildo, would that give me more direction? I'm really confused, I dont know what to do.
  • SwimBIkeRun94...

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    Aug 11, 2011 3:52 PM GMT
    Hopefullguy saidI cant figure out if im gay or straight or bi or what. I fantasize about getting fucked and sucking cock but I go hook up with women and love it.


    You're definitely not straight.

    I've slept with 20-some girls in my life before being honest with myself that it's dudes I prefer. Am I gay? Am I bi? I don't know. I don't care.

    The fact that when your hoover woman is not around makes you immediately think of dick suggests to me you are gay, or closer to being gay, and you're trying to suppress your feelings by hooking up with chicks. It's okay, many a gay man have done the same.

    Could I hook up with a girl again? Absolutely. But when I'm at the beach I find myself looking at the speedo-wrapped packages instead of the funbags covered by a lycra bra.
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    Aug 11, 2011 4:39 PM GMT
    But if I got pussy everyday I would prolly not think about dick or want it.
    I was married before and I never thought about guys at all cause I was having great sex every night with the woman I loved?
    So do you think I'm gay or bi or bicurious?
    I just want to know what I am, I could sleep better at night.
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    Aug 11, 2011 9:22 PM GMT
    For what it's worth, I kind of think this is one of those "Who gives a damn?" questions. I mean, you seem to care, but why? Is it so you can give yourself a label? You hook up with women and seem to prefer women, but think about guys. That would seem to mean you're bi with a preference towards women.

    If you wanna label for yourself, go with "horny". icon_razz.gif
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    Aug 11, 2011 9:36 PM GMT
    Do you have emotional feelings more for females or males? Ive never been with a female in my life had female friends but never an emotional connection to any of them. with males it's not just a sexual connection but an emotional one as well. as in crushes, butterfly's in the tummy, feelings of love. imo sexual identity is based on not just sexual connection but a combination of sexual and emotional.
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    Aug 12, 2011 12:18 AM GMT
    denus saidFor what it's worth, I kind of think this is one of those "Who gives a damn?" questions. I mean, you seem to care, but why? Is it so you can give yourself a label? You hook up with women and seem to prefer women, but think about guys. That would seem to mean you're bi with a preference towards women.

    If you wanna label for yourself, go with "horny". icon_razz.gif


    I guess your right, this actually helped me. Thanks
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    Aug 12, 2011 12:23 AM GMT
    atljoe75 saidDo you have emotional feelings more for females or males? Ive never been with a female in my life had female friends but never an emotional connection to any of them. with males it's not just a sexual connection but an emotional one as well. as in crushes, butterfly's in the tummy, feelings of love. imo sexual identity is based on not just sexual connection but a combination of sexual and emotional.


    I have a emotional attachment to close guy friends that is like close as family. I love them like a brother, but its not sexual or romantic. Like my past two roommates and the one I am currently living with, good looking guys and we are as close as brothers But that is far as it goes. I guess its what you call a bromance. I would rather hook up with a random guy for some fun breeding and thats about it.

    I do have emotional attachments to women big time. Like if I love one, Its hard to breath when I think about them or around them. I cant think straight and I love them more than anything.

    But it still does not explain why I wanna suck dick sometimes and am a horny bottom. But I guess Denus might be right, I might just be extremely horny and look for sex whenever and where ever I can.
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    Aug 28, 2011 11:07 PM GMT
    Fact #1 = You are bisexual and women provide you with great sex
    Fact #2 = Emotionaly women turn you on, and you do well with that
    Fact #3 = Because you are not living out the male sex, it is what you fantasize with.
    Fact #4 = For you sex with men would be a purely physical thing that takes care of accute hornyness

    Add it up = it is simple, accept it & play out some sex scenes with dudes and then keep on playing both sides.
    You will have more fun than most people.
    Forget about a lable for who you are, that's irrelevant
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    Aug 29, 2011 2:55 AM GMT
    I am EXACTLY the same man... Good post.