Aug 30, 2011 10:01 PM GMT
Suppressed my sexual impulses for the longest time because i was never comfortable with being gay. finally got frustrated senior year of college and started going online for hook ups. never saw myself dating a guy or having a relationship but accidentally fell in love. we secretly dated (long distance so it was easy to hide) for a year and i screwed up and the relationship couldn't survive. I've made some positive changes in my life over the past 3 months including coming out to family. But now all i want is a ltr. i feel guilty about my past hook ups and even the thought a one night stand/hooking up now just makes me feel sick. Has anyone else had a similar experience? am i over thinking it? are hookups "normal"?