Emotionally I hurt so bad this time ten years ago; awaiting what the world now calls 9/11. But.......

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    Sep 02, 2011 8:11 PM GMT
    It is so diffrent today. I feel so humble and blessed with all the love that has come my way, the cheques, that have been sent to me for my B'day, because this time 10 years ago I was adamant there would be no party for my 40th B'day, no cards, hugs, cake, gift, party nothing; and there was nothing. All because I had first started to talk about what the world now calls 9/11 way back in May of 1999.

    I truly feel that I have had the love of god shine down on me and too bless my life. It truly has all been so humbling, and I truly feel so blessed, and I survived the 1980s when so many did not to experience this too.

    One is not religus, but I find it hard to rule out there may well be something. Or my brain may not always spell things correctly, but it has an ability that many here do not have. One or the other. But does that really matter, because the proof is out there that I first started to talk about this in 1999, and was bullied and ridiculed for it, but I stood my ground, and was proven right in the end.

    Let the celebrations begin for me this year. But I am also mindful that ten years ago when I awake on my 40th B'day, the world had indeed changed, as I first started to talk about way back in May of 1999. Since I made the sacrafice before any other. I feel I have every right to celebrate this time around, when so many may not. But there will not be any party. This time around I will be travailing, starting off in America to show my respects.

    We can not rule out there is a power greater than us, and with that, I can die knowing those who done me wrong and got away with it, may well not after their own death; that gives me hope.

    yes I truly feel so blessed ten years on, and no one can take that away from me!
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    Sep 03, 2011 12:19 AM GMT
    yourname2000 saidYou're 49 and people still send you cheques for your birthday??

    Oh, and regarding your post: wut? icon_eek.gif


    Yes by people who don't live near me; yep I have received a number of cheques, totaling a few grand for spending money for my trip away, instead of gifts, and I have received a few of them too already; gifts that is.

    Oh real life can be more amazing than fiction; but this is not the first time I have talked about my experience here at RJ that started way back in 1999, the year my man from Russia come into my life, and I was to first talk to him about what the world now calls 9/11 on that day in May, just after he told me he would be back home in Russia in a few days, and my world just fell all around me. So my story first went all the way to Moscow Russia.

    But then we have an amazing story too, because it was way back in 1989, that I first knew he would come into y life, I just did not know I would have too wait ten years.

    But as I said I am not religus, and belong to no faith, but it's made it all bloody hard for me to live in ignorance, to dismiss there may well be something, or the brain is just an amazing muscle, not yet full understood.
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    Sep 04, 2011 9:12 AM GMT
    pattison saidIt is so diffrent today. I feel so humble and blessed with all the love that has come my way, the cheques, that have been sent to me for my B'day, because this time 10 years ago I was adamant there would be no party for my 40th B'day, no cards, hugs, cake, gift, party nothing; and there was nothing. All because I had first started to talk about what the world now calls 9/11 way back in May of 1999.

    I truly feel that I have had the love of god shine down on me and too bless my life. It truly has all been so humbling, and I truly feel so blessed, and I survived the 1980s when so many did not to experience this too.

    One is not religus, but I find it hard to rule out there may well be something. Or my brain may not always spell things correctly, but it has an ability that many here do not have. One or the other. But does that really matter, because the proof is out there that I first started to talk about this in 1999, and was bullied and ridiculed for it, but I stood my ground, and was proven right in the end.

    Let the celebrations begin for me this year. But I am also mindful that ten years ago when I awake on my 40th B'day, the world had indeed changed, as I first started to talk about way back in May of 1999. Since I made the sacrafice before any other. I feel I have every right to celebrate this time around, when so many may not. But there will not be any party. This time around I will be travailing, starting off in America to show my respects.

    We can not rule out there is a power greater than us, and with that, I can die knowing those who done me wrong and got away with it, may well not after their own death; that gives me hope.

    yes I truly feel so blessed ten years on, and no one can take that away from me!


    Those who done you wrong will answer to the Lord Jesus Christ on judgement day. For God exists and you are blessed by Him.

    Read His word, learn from it and apply it and live for ever. The second death will have no power over you.