Sep 24, 2011 4:49 AM GMT
being sick sucks
waimea saidYou're feeling vulnerable and that is ok. It is a part of life that you will know later on that you will come out of it stronger. Sure when you are sick or unfortunate events are happening, you feel like your world is crumbling down and you wish that there is somebody who is there who can lend you a shoulder to cry on, or to give you some emotional support. But when you think about life, we all came here alone and we will leave alone as well. If you are lucky, you will have met people who understood you and who you will cherish in your heart. I really hate to sound real cheesy but just like in the movie ghost, the love inside, you take it with you. Awww. At least I would like to think so.
melloyello saidTotaled my cherry M3 today. Massive 5 car pileup at the base of an onramp and there was no way to stop so my poor car can fit in the compact car slot at the parking lot now.
Bad bloody nose and 2 black eyes from the airbag and a broken foot from trying to slam on the brakes and the impact. But I guess it could have been worse.
Now I'm sitting on my couch waiting on an Ambien and a vicodin to start working so I can go to sleep and I can't help but think about the guy I was with for 3 years who dumped me. We work together and I was supposed to be his relief this evening so I know he knows what happened. Its just sort of depressing me that he didn't even text or call to see how I was. If I'd heard something had happened to him, I'd be on the first car/bus/train/foot to get there and make sure he was ok.
For instance, a few days after we broke up, he asked to borrow my old "beater" car and he got stopped in it and hauled off to jail for a outstanding warrant from a traffic ticket from a year ago. This was at 10pm on a Saturday night. I called in every favor I could call in and had a lawyer friend down there and paid his bail to get him out of there as fast as I could. And I ended up sitting there all night in the waiting room waiting for him.
Look I wasn't a great boyfriend when we were together. I had some issues and I kinda wanted my space but I spent the whole end of our relationship trying to prove that I was different. Thats my fault, and I deserve to be thrown out in the cold 100% but theres not a guy I have a minutes worth of connection with whose pain I wouldn't try to alleviate if I could.
I honestly don't want anything other then his presence. Sometimes the best things in life are gone before you realize it and theres nothing you can do even if you kill yourself trying.
Thanks for the rant guys.