My High School Bullying

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    Sep 26, 2011 4:29 AM GMT
    Since there is a lot of conversation about bullying I figured I'd tell my story. I graduated in 2009 so this wasn't that long ago.

    I used to get bullied for being gay almost every week. I'm not feminine but people found out because I told a few people. No one was really violent towards me they just teased me in a joking manner. One day after class was dismissed we were walking in the hallway and some guys were behind me and they took a coke bottle and started poking it at my hole through my pants. Things like this happened a lot and mostly it just humiliated me. Guys would tease me and act like they were flirting by grabbing me and saying sexual things. I was naive and sometimes thought maybe they meant it. I was lonely and it was the closest I ever was to anything with another guy. In middle school guys In the locker room would turn all the lights off while I was getting dressed and surround me and start grinding and touching me. I would try and play it off like it didn't bother me. They never stopped. I would try and find all kinds of excuses to not dress for gym class but it never worked. I hated school because I always got humiliated. I had 0 friends in middle school and I ate alone. Lunch was the worst because I always felt like a freak and that people pitied me because I ate alone. Sometimes girls would come over and try and talk to me because they felt back. That was embarrassing to me to, because I didn't want to be that. Same thing in high school until senior year when I made 2 girl friends. So yes being gay in school is hell.
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    Sep 26, 2011 4:37 AM GMT
    Thanks for sharing, icon_smile.gif it mustn't have been easy.
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    Sep 26, 2011 4:40 AM GMT
    Hypnotico saidThanks for sharing, icon_smile.gif it mustn't have been easy.

    Nope it's hard to get over it. It really sticks with you. Like now it's hard for me to approach people because I feel like I'm a loser. I'm just so self conscious now, I don't want to be a target.
  • masculumpedes

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    Sep 26, 2011 4:42 AM GMT
    I am sorry that you had to experience this. I consider myself fortunate that I was never bullied in school. I was the guy that during a test and the instructor left the room, the other guys would call out " Will, what's the answer to # 7....and # 9....etc." icon_redface.gif
  • kuroshiro

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    Sep 26, 2011 3:52 PM GMT
    I graduated high school back in 2003, so it was definitely before the information age of cellphones and social networking and what not. First and foremost, I was grappling with my sexuality early on in high school. I made a comment to my best friend at the time about seeing the outline of someones package while they were playing street hockey, mainly because I didn't think anything of it and it started to spread like wildfire. My "best friend" told his girl friends and they started it. I never felt so sick in my life the day I found out the person I mentioned knew. I was punched, checked into lockers, annihilated at dodgeball by the jocks (cue face shots, glasses flying), threats of rape, etc for quite a while after that. Add to the fact that my nickname is BJ (since I don't go by William, ever) and the antics were magnified. Heck, the bullying started for me when I went from private school to public school in 7th grade. Amazing how the little pissants knew what a 'blow job' was back then.

    I had my face buried in guys crotches on the bus because they thought it was funny. I never once said anything, told anyone or did anything about it. I just sat and took it. My best friends sister (bless her heart) was one of the bombshells of the school at the time and she stood up for me numerous times. But, when she wasn't around things started again. Eventually I just started to fight back... but I fought back with words, witty retorts that made them shut up.

    By doing this I got them to back off and sort of gained their respect (the jocks came crying to me for homework help after a while), but there were still moments of crap. My junior/senior year was pretty much smooth since people finally woke up I guess. But by that point I had sort of 'cleared the air' with a bad... 'I think you're attractive" incident with a girl D: